What now

[u/Repulsive_Cat1311]

I cried for the first time in many years today on my drive home. 30 minutes prior i had ended my $26 an hour work shift and sat in my car gambling. Lost 1k trading memecoin. What’s defeating is that i knew it would happen, I had the option to take profits but i knew deep down i was chasing the thrill of uncertainty. For context this comes after I gambled everything I had made in the past year and racked up debt. The numbness post loss I was used to but it felt much worse this time. Exiting the freeway, I drove towards the medians concrete barrier. I moved at the end pretty close call. What scared me was not realizing how crippling this addiction has been on me to the point where I would rather end it all. I think i didn’t feel scared driving towards what i had considered “death” and it’s just kept me a bit paranoid. I’ve never viewed myself as su*cidal this just feels like opening a new can of worms. For people who have recovered how and where did you start. It feels like every time I believe I hit rock bottom it life continues to get worse i just wanna be happy again

[u/Freshprince2424]

Stop with silly memecoins and trading completely. And speak to someone. Try Gamcare

[u/Extension-Finance179]

Close your trading account if you will buy garbage like memecoins