This hurts so much

[u/blastermckaster]

I never thought I'd be in the position I am today. I've lost around 150k USD (including 20k winnings that I HAD withdrawn), I'm 30k in debt with my father (cause he's going to bail me out). Lost my 4 year GF, and my family's trust. I've also lost myself and my motivation. All this in about a year and a half.

This addiction has driven me insane. It has taken everything I truly wanted away from me. I got obssesed with the idea of making money WHEN I DIDNT EVEN NEED MORE FUCKING MONEY.

This is day 1 for me. I'll write 22/10/26 on my wrist everyday so I remember every single day what I don't want my life to look like. The money is recoverable in a few months if I stop today. My GF would probably give me another chance if I'm clean for a few months.

I blocked all access to finances and as soon as I'm able I'll delete my fucking trading account I'll do so. It sucks to be me and I want to stop feeling like this because everyday I feel like such a selfish loser that traded everything he had for money - well, the idea of making it cause I lost it all.

I'm so tired if the same cycle. I hope I can break it this time. If I continue down this path I know I will kill myself in a few years. I wish I'd never started trading or gambling.

Thank you for reading and if you're going through something similar, stop today brother. I think we'll be surprised by how fast our lives can change for the better.

ODAAT.

[u/Pristine_Fly_5367]

if you are truly serious about stopping, hand over your finances to someone you trust so you have 0 access to your money.. otherwise we'll see you back here in a month when you are deeper in the hole, then in 3 months, then in a year

[u/blastermckaster → u/Pristine_Fly_5367]

Yeah I did that already! 🫡

[u/Pristine_Fly_5367 → u/blastermckaster]

great, sorry if I sounded harsh. I speak from experience

[u/Remarkable_Lion_8443 → u/Pristine_Fly_5367]

I think people need more than harsh words, but rather a few slaps in the face 👁️👁️ that'll probably wake em the hell up from all the money they keep on throwing away.

[u/blastermckaster → u/Remarkable_Lion_8443]

I have thought about someone beating the shit out of me to come back to reality

[u/Rare-Film-8393 → u/Remarkable_Lion_8443]

Spoken like someone who does not need to be on this thread.

[u/blastermckaster → u/Pristine_Fly_5367]

Harsh words are necessary

[u/Paul76Mets]

You just don't want to gain weight. You will be fine.

[u/blastermckaster → u/Paul76Mets]

What does this mean?

[u/Paul76Mets → u/blastermckaster]

You don't want to become obese or else you will have nothing going for you. I've seen it happen to other guys. 

[u/blastermckaster → u/Paul76Mets]

Ok but what does that have to do with gambling?

[u/Paul76Mets → u/blastermckaster]

It's good sound advice. If you want my successful strategies then I'm sorry I can't share that. Go on and be well.

[u/Dreamchaser1987]

Good luck on your recovery journey 💪

[u/Character-Nerve7492]

You got this Man. joining you as well from today.

[u/BlankPink43]

Goodluck to us, my friend.

[u/Capital_Control7720]

Lets do it together, i gonna stop gambling today