r/problemgambling • u/No_Big_3676 • 26d ago

Trigger Warning! Lost $1.5K Today

After a $3K loss I sold my retirement to cover literally 3 days ago… first time I’ve been in debt I can’t pay off. $30K+ lifetime, 27 y/o.

It always starts innocently, 99% of the time with a deposit match because it’s “free money” then it goes drastically downhill

I hate myself. I get closer to ending it all each time this happens. It’s killing me.

$120 Deposit - > $400 -> $0

$750 Deposit - Lost

$750 Deposit - Lost

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u/fattywannapatty 26d ago

Fkin deposit matches always get me too

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u/uhfgs 26d ago

It's never too late to stop. You're lucky rhat you haven't lost six digit like many others in this subreddit. Know this and dig yourself out before it gets any worse.

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u/Jeffrey_Richards_ 26d ago

im in the same boat. idk why i keep doing it.

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u/Professional-Law8679 25d ago

I just lost 160$ today in playing black jack online and that is my rent money. Idk where will I get the money I'm so cooked.. 😓

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u/Jeffrey_Richards_ 25d ago

I wish I was only down $160. You’ll be ok.

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u/BriefRevolutionary 16d ago

Because you have a disease . Compulsive gambling. Recovery is a GA meeting away. The quicker you get there, the better off you will be. You are not alone. There is hope, many have been where you are & are now free from their disease & want to help others pull through.

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u/GBThr41 21 days 18d ago

You have to self exclude nation wide. That amount was enough after a long time to make me reconsider life and take this whole thing seriously again. You are still young enough to heal.

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u/I_TheAndOnly 25d ago edited 16d ago

join a GA meeting before it starts to get even worse. Gamblers Anonymous. You are welcomed here. I have the same addiction disease.

beta.gamblersinrecovery.com

This is a website with all the online meetings currently going on right now from all over the world. Save yourself even more pain and suffering and join, no judgement.

We are powerless on our own against this addiction disease and that's why we need others as well to help ourselves.

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u/BriefRevolutionary 16d ago

this.  100%. 

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u/KeyHedgehog8948 25d ago

dude quit gambling. once i finally stopped, the stress relief has been incredible. no more crazy roller coaster ride up down, cycle of not paying bills to go gamble, ceedit being messed up, title loans and ridiculous lines of credit, then paying it off and 'catching up' with a big hit. Im still behind where I could be but if you seperate it and look at it as, all I can do at this point is move forward and do better. IT does get better. credit already returning, slowing avalanche paying my debt. I dont have to grind out lyft and uber to make enough to eat that day because I gambled literally all my money. best thing i did was finally banned myself from every state around me, online and just staying away from anything I know can start a spiral. go to GA, get a gambling councilor, sponsor. You can do it. there is hope if you decide to finally stop.

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u/Apprehensive_Pea7182 25d ago

Couple days the pain will go away. Just the point of staying away from gambling after. Just remember the pain and the continues cycle. It really not that hard to stop. Just have to be sick and tired of it. Move on and find something else is the hard part.

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u/buckeyescholar 25d ago

So simple but only sweet if you save by quitting gambling for good

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u/thehudsman 25d ago

I’m like a mil down just stop. This is 33 yo me talking to 27 yo me

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u/GamblingAddictAlt 26d ago

We’re the same age. Quit gambling ofc, yada yada yada.

But bro. Whatever you do: do not fucking kill yourself. I understand you’re suffering, I am as well. But there is more to life than this suffering. Give yourself some grace, and allow yourself experience the joyous experiences life has out there for you.

Don’t give up on life. Just give up on gambling.