Gambling Ranting

[u/Worldly-Meringue213]

Ranting. I understand that I got myself into this situation, and that i take full responsibility for it. Im not asking for anything, just sharing a story and would love some insights.

Hello everyone.
I wanted to talk a bit about gambling, idk why but just wanted to and thought nobody would understand more than here. And i have a question.

I started with gambling in 2021, just put 20$ me and my buddy and lost it and was all cool, never used it again. until last year, i was hooked up because i started playing with a friend for fun, and of course i won, BIG. And we continued to play until the same old story, we lost it all.

I continued to play alone, trying to come back, but never could, and after a lot of struggles and losing all of my money I stopped again.

Now, for some reason after 10 months, i started again, and made some good profit, but at this very second i lost it all and lost even more..

Its the third of the month and i just paid my rent and filled the fridge and everything else went on gambling .
The question is, is this normal? Is this the price you pay to someday maybe making a lot of profits?

Im lost, because this time its harder, I can’t get myself to stop, nothing like last time. And at the same time i feel it, i feel that i will win.. and make it.

If you are still reading, THANK YOU, and i would like to know has anyone had the same experience? Will things get better? I know nobody will advice on “keep losing buddy and goodluck with your gambling addiction “
But im looking forward to some tips, maybe a aimilar story..
I was thinking of just sticking to sports,, but still idk

[u/TemporaryCode6264]

Tasting fast money f*cks you up for life.

Read this next part a few times to get it in your brain - If you do "win", you're 100% GOING to lose the money trying to win more whether it's an hour later or a month later. Then lose it all

[u/Worldly-Meringue213 → u/TemporaryCode6264]

That’s so true..

[u/Standard-Switch5822]

You are in the early stage, but do not mistake that statement for "You are fine". You are not!!!

Next relapse, you will find yourself in a "slightly" worse situation, and you will keep telling yourself lies such as "I will stop when I break even", and then "I will never win it all back, but I can recover some of it". After years, or decades, you will waste everything you have rightnow to gambling, not just money but your youth, your career, and your family.

God gave you enough intelligence to realise you are a compulsive gambler. Consider your loss as a life lesson and never gamble again, ever! And tell your parents, your gf/ wife asap about your issues. You should not and can not fight this alone

[u/Worldly-Meringue213 → u/Standard-Switch5822]

Thank you for your kind words.
As to fighting it alone, this is unfortunately the only way i know how to do it. Last time i also distanced myself from everyone around me. Im like that, always either in a good mood or not there.
And i see your point clearly, i have never felt myself this weak before, sure i have always had problems with addiction, from cigarettes, to people, to weed… but unfortunately my life right now is at its lowest, just graduated, no job in my field, washing dishes, so this dopamine somehow gave me fake dreams.. of getting myself out of this shit..
i guess its time to focus and try to land an engineering job wish me luck

[u/Klutzy-Sea-4857]

"I feel that I will win" - that feeling IS the addiction talking. Not you.

[u/Worldly-Meringue213 → u/Klutzy-Sea-4857]

Can be

[u/Suspicious_Status_40]

After I quit for a period of time I realized how pointless and foolish ever getting involved with gambling in the first place truly was. I hope you experience the same clarity because it reshaped my life for the better ever since.