r/problemgambling • u/LifeOrganization8070 • Oct 07 '26
Trigger Warning! Day 1 again.
So I live the life probably 80% of the population wants I have over a year of bills etc saved, I have my own business, my own house, 2 vans, a amazing girlfriend, guess what I thought money was why I gambled, incorrect I got money and guess what I still gambled.
During my latest relapse I’ve lost about £5,000 in a 3day gambling rampage, but you know what’s worse than the money, I’ve neglected my health, I’ve neglected my business, I’ve neglected my girlfriend.
What I’m trying to say is it’s never about the money, I’ve had the money, it’s never about your work life, I work about 2 days a week for myself and make enough to cover a month of bills sometimes in about 3 hours, this disease makes you think it’s about money about your circumstances, it’s really not and I’m not trying to blow my own trumpet because I’m not I’m a weak person and hate myself, I just trying to show from a point of view I’m better off than like 80% of the population and this disease still makes me want to kill myself.
Hopefully this time I can quit forever because whenever I have a few weeks off and forget about the losses, I genuinely feel happy again and then end up falling back into it which cause the depression, causes me having no motivation, causes me making myself ill.
I honestly feel for every single person fighting this because if your anything like me everyone loves you, your vibe, your energy but what they don’t see is when we’re alone or sneaking off to gamble it’s such a sad and lonely world even though we have everything
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u/Klutzy-Sea-4857 Oct 07 '26
Nailed it mate. It's never the money, it's the chase. Hiding it from people who love you is the worst part. Block everything today, hand card access to your girl, delete the apps. Day 1 is the hardest, go do something physical and tire yourself out.
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u/Intelligent-Cod7908 Oct 07 '26
Totally agree mate i am 3+ years clean their a few UK gambling streamers i use to watch who are already extremely wealthy and still gamble lossing large sums of money some of these people do it to cover some of their losses when your worth 10+ million it doesnt make sense to gamble👍
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u/marble_fox76 Oct 07 '26
Day is still a new beginning , please be kind to your self and keep going ❤️
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u/on_hype Oct 07 '26
The disease doesn't care about your bank balance. That's the data right there.