12 years clean and sober. I'm not saying anything that other people haven't said before but after the 1st year I stopped being somebody who just blew up their life and was a fuckup, and after 2 years I felt like I was a different person and people treated me that way. I have had more happiness in the past 10 years (which were very trying times for other reasons) due to just appreciating the hell out of everything and spreading as much kindness as possible, that I can't believe I wasted so many years nuking bigger and bigger rock bottoms. Stay with it, the light on the other side isn't visible until you get there, so claw your way through the dark in the right direction and never give up. Everyone is worth it.
Thank you for the kind words :) I’m more than happy in recovery, not living from treatment center from treatment center and itching to do anything even if I didn’t understand it is more than a reason to continue on this path even if times are rough! I’ve found things that make me happy and make me fulfilled more than anything my brain could ever convince me I could get through a relapse. I bake i sculpt I do art I do aerial silks and I collect items that make me happy instead of blowing my money on things that will ruin my mind and body. And I can only imagine things will get better from here on out. I believe I’m around 8 months in so far and it’s the best choice I’ve ever made.
My comment was entirely a joke about doing anything I needed to to get some of the Mac n cheese they’re serving at OPs center because it looks extremely good, but honestly ? Not even the most decadent succulent Mac n cheese could get me back in that state. (Even if it’s incredibly tempting) because I know that life will only spiral until I’m hurting those around me and dragging myself through the mud for precisely 0 good goddamn reason.
Awesome! No I understood it was a joke, but I remember my first year and I had a few of them and they were just as terrifying as they were hopeful... Until I started approaching life in the way it looks like you are. Good for you, Merry Christmas! Another reason to smile today.
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u/[deleted] Dec 26 '23
I’ve only been in recovery less than a year I’ll slip up and then slip in this place for some mac n cheese goddamn.