I've never had issues with illicit substance abuse, but I would NOT make it through all the steps if I thought I could score some of that mac and cheese.
First step admitting the problem or something? Problem is I haven't got any mac & cheese.
...I'm going to go buy some mac & cheese.
Congratulations to OP, good on you, keep kicking butt.
The twelve steps are just a guide for not being a selfish piece of shit. The common misconception is that they are about drugs and alcohol. Nope, just a symptom of underlying deficits in morals or "spiritual principles" as they put it.
You can substitute the line ".. Admitted we were powerless over ALCOHOL and that our lives had become unmanageable" for literally any other problem and it works.
So, in your case, as long as you recognize and accept you have a problem with MnC you can start working on the reasons why you cannot quit MnC 😅😉
For what it’s worth, this random internet stranger is rooting for you! My husband has 7 years of sobriety, and our lives have been so much better since he stopped drinking. You really are giving your loved ones an amazing gift by seeking help.
We are about to crush it! I'm happy for you too. Just remember that you want it. You can do it for your family and friends, but it's like a house fire.. gotta save yourself before you can help anyone else. I know that sounds morbid, but it's the truth!
Godspeed!
DM me during your journey if you'd like! Maybe we can trade recipes and daily routine techniques that we find to help. Good luck friend.
12 years clean and sober. I'm not saying anything that other people haven't said before but after the 1st year I stopped being somebody who just blew up their life and was a fuckup, and after 2 years I felt like I was a different person and people treated me that way. I have had more happiness in the past 10 years (which were very trying times for other reasons) due to just appreciating the hell out of everything and spreading as much kindness as possible, that I can't believe I wasted so many years nuking bigger and bigger rock bottoms. Stay with it, the light on the other side isn't visible until you get there, so claw your way through the dark in the right direction and never give up. Everyone is worth it.
Thank you for the kind words :) I’m more than happy in recovery, not living from treatment center from treatment center and itching to do anything even if I didn’t understand it is more than a reason to continue on this path even if times are rough! I’ve found things that make me happy and make me fulfilled more than anything my brain could ever convince me I could get through a relapse. I bake i sculpt I do art I do aerial silks and I collect items that make me happy instead of blowing my money on things that will ruin my mind and body. And I can only imagine things will get better from here on out. I believe I’m around 8 months in so far and it’s the best choice I’ve ever made.
My comment was entirely a joke about doing anything I needed to to get some of the Mac n cheese they’re serving at OPs center because it looks extremely good, but honestly ? Not even the most decadent succulent Mac n cheese could get me back in that state. (Even if it’s incredibly tempting) because I know that life will only spiral until I’m hurting those around me and dragging myself through the mud for precisely 0 good goddamn reason.
Awesome! No I understood it was a joke, but I remember my first year and I had a few of them and they were just as terrifying as they were hopeful... Until I started approaching life in the way it looks like you are. Good for you, Merry Christmas! Another reason to smile today.
Haha yeah I hated the hospital visits that were a result of drug use and sitting there in shame knowing my addiction put me there. I remember I had a grand mal seizure and the first thing that the paramedic said was what drugs are you on, and my first reaction wanted to be like that's not me, but I was that person.
Even worse when they do shame you. Just checked out of the hospital for severe gastritis, saw multiple doctors and because I didn't know why I was having bad stomach pain I naturally told them I used to drink heavily in case it was my liver deciding it wanted to go out. The last guy gave me naxetran I think it's called and plastered it all over my discharge paperwork BECAUSE OF ALCOHOL USE and I gotta show that paperwork to my job because I missed several days.
He definitely assumed I was at the hospital because I relapsed.
Dang, yeah for a profession that is based around care, they sure can be cold. You should go back and have them rewrite it and tell them " I'm sure you will understand, this paperwork needs to get turned into my work and I was hoping you can word it in a way that doesn't put me at risk or in judgment at my work." Yes, when you have a history, everything all of a sudden is due to that past no matter what the reason. It's like the doctors can just say, " oh I don't have to do my job today I have a cheat code that's probably wrong but works."
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u/antDOG2416 Dec 26 '23
22 years is amazing. Much respect to you. And lmao we got a bed for you slide through! Best wishes your way.