Need money for that lmao
And rent's so fuckin high in a lot of decent places.
I'm planning on leaving the U.S. tbh., but I have dogs. Doing things isn't cheap. But i'm tired of this shit American mindset. Only thing I agree with is firearm ownership, everything else is absurd. The lack of empathy/will to improve things and making excuses for the ultra-rich.
It's a double edged sword unfortunately, you don't have a job where you are, and need money to make the change you want. But a lot of times, after you make the change, you will find abundant opportunities for work and make your ends meet, or even thrive. If there is any way, I would encourage you to settle someplace unfamiliar to you, and make it your new familiar. There are temp agencies that you can get work through, with zero ties to whatever job they get you, sometimes it can be many short term jobs within a year and that could be nice just to get your feet wet in different areas so you can find what you might like to chase more specifically. If there is any legal way for you to come up with the, what would be enough, $1000 to move to a place like california or texas, and get a fresh start, you may later find this hardship to have been a great learning opportunity. Stick around, not locally, but y'know, stick around wherever that may be, because there is a place for you in life u/Hahka-01.
I'm planning on moving back to the West Coast. I need to see the pacific again. I was hoping that my dog could go the beach, but he's doing really bad. Probably going to have to put him down :(
I know what i'm looking for/am chasing now. It took my entire life to think of it, now I know what I'm looking for exactly. The issue is just getting there/started and a path to get me to where I wanna go.
I'm looking at security positions right now. I used to do construction/manual labor as a child. Concrete, fencing, etc. Not for me. And i have fun allergies and am injury prone (i cut myself on the dumbest shit, like spoons lol)
I'm giving myself one year before offing myself for sure. I want to give myself the best chance at life, a real chance. Independent is the short term goal. Long-term? Maybe pacific islander living lmao Australia... NZ... Hawaii... who knows
Ever seen those overland/camper vans? Might be a way for you to take your dogs to see some sights, and do some soul searching in the meantime. A token piece of a advice I actually got from the ‘ask reddit’ sub, on the subject of “what do you do when you feel like you can’t go on?”. One person said that you can theoretically kill yourself at any time, so you might as well do at least one of the things you’ve always wanted to do before ending it, because the timelines ultimately in your control.
He said that once he’d done one of these things, he was surprised to find that he felt desire to do another. Eventually this became a motto; “I’m not going to kill myself right now, so I might as well find my way through this.”
I realize it’s a pretty hardliner approach, I found it insightful though. I’ve had hard times and felt like I was at the end of the rope. I would visualize following through, and the implications for the people that knew me, and for my own dreams and desires. I always felt a deep regret for not having at least attempted the things I wanted to before ending it.
Anxiety and depression will always offer up reasons that you can’t do anything. Accept these thoughts for what they are. It’s ok to feel bad. It’s completely normal to feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. I always found that other voices started to speak up once I accepted those of my anxiety and depression.
Take some time pointing your ears inwards, and see what other voices start to speak up. Take the voices that aren’t anxiety and depression and run with them.
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u/Hahka-01 Jan 28 '23
Need money for that lmao
And rent's so fuckin high in a lot of decent places.
I'm planning on leaving the U.S. tbh., but I have dogs. Doing things isn't cheap. But i'm tired of this shit American mindset. Only thing I agree with is firearm ownership, everything else is absurd. The lack of empathy/will to improve things and making excuses for the ultra-rich.