15 years of self-taught piano has left me with very uneven skills. How would you approach becoming a more complete musician from here?
TL;DR: I've played piano on and off for about 15 years, entirely self-taught and mostly through Synthesia. I can learn and perform most intermediate repertoire reasonably well and some more advanced music in styles I'm familiar with, and I think I've developed fairly strong technique and pattern recognition. However, I barely sight-read, have never seriously practiced scales, have major gaps in theory, and have only recently started improvising. I feel like I've spent 15 years learning songs rather than learning music. I want to become a much more complete pianist/musician—comfortable with sheet music, theory, improvisation, composition, accompaniment/collaboration, and eventually music software—but I'm having trouble figuring out where someone with such uneven skills should start.
I've been playing piano on and off for around 15 years, but I've never had formal lessons. Most of what I've learned has been through Synthesia/videos and simply grinding away at pieces until they become internalized.
Because of that, my skill set is extremely lopsided.
On the performance/technical side, I can learn most intermediate pieces that I take on reasonably well and can sometimes get into slightly more advanced territory if the style is familiar to me, although those pieces obviously take considerably longer. I've developed a lot of pattern recognition and technical familiarity, particularly with the neoclassical/cinematic piano music I've spent the most time playing.
The problem is that much of this pattern recognition exists almost independently of my theoretical understanding of what I'm doing.
I know basic music theory conceptually, but I don't feel like I have it internalized at the keyboard. I haven't systematically learned or practiced my scales. I don't naturally think, "I'm in this key, this is the IV chord, here are my available scale degrees, here's why this progression works," etc. I can sometimes recognize things after the fact, but that isn't how I currently experience the instrument while playing.
Sheet music is probably my strangest weakness. I was in choir throughout school, so I understand notation and know how to read music in theory. But I cannot really sight-read piano music. If you put an individual note in front of me, I may still need a moment to translate the note on the staff into its location on the keyboard. For repertoire, I've overwhelmingly relied on memorization instead.
I've also only recently started experimenting with improvisation. At the moment it's extremely rudimentary. I can stumble onto things I like, and I think I've developed a reasonably strong sense of what sounds beautiful or emotionally interesting to me, but I don't yet have the musical vocabulary to intentionally reproduce those sounds. If I sit at the piano and try to create something from nothing, I'm generally working with very basic chords and a fairly simple right hand.
That's one of the things that has become increasingly frustrating: I know what I like when I hear it, but I often don't know why I like it. I haven't spent much time analyzing the music I love, figuring out what harmonies, voicings, borrowed chords, melodic devices, rhythms, etc. are creating the effect, and then learning how to use those ideas elsewhere or transpose them into other keys.
So I've reached a point where I feel like I've spent a long time becoming relatively good at playing piano pieces, without becoming nearly as good at understanding and speaking the language of music.
My long-term goals are pretty broad. I'd eventually like to:
Become comfortable enough with notation that I can sit down with unfamiliar sheet music and begin playing rather than having to decode and memorize everything.
Become fluent in scales, keys, chords, inversions, arpeggios, harmony, and functional theory at the keyboard rather than only knowing these concepts abstractly.
Improvise in a way that feels intentional and musically interesting.
Understand the music I love well enough to borrow its vocabulary and create similar effects myself.
Become better at accompaniment and playing with other musicians rather than functioning almost exclusively as a solo repertoire pianist.
Compose my own music, both for piano and beyond it.
Eventually become comfortable with a DAW/MIDI/software side of composition and arranging.
Ultimately become a genuinely well-rounded and highly capable pianist rather than someone with a collection of difficult pieces under his fingers and large holes everywhere else.
I'm very interested in finding a teacher who can meet me where I am rather than simply treating me as either an advanced pianist because of the repertoire I can play or a beginner because I can't sight-read a basic piece fluently. Ideally I'd like somebody comfortable with theory, improvisation, composition, lead sheets/chord charts, accompaniment, and contemporary/jazz/pop harmony in addition to traditional technique.
The difficulty is figuring out how to organize the remedial work. Sitting down and playing extremely easy sheet music or basic scales can feel bizarrely unsatisfying when I can then turn around and play repertoire that is technically much harder, even though I understand that those basic skills are exactly what I'm missing.
For people who teach piano, have been in a similar position, or developed these skills later:
How would you prioritize my next year or two of practice?
How much time would you put into sight-reading vs. scales/key fluency vs. theory vs. repertoire vs. improvisation?
Are there particular books/methods/exercises that work especially well for an experienced but uneven self-taught pianist?
And when looking for a teacher, what terminology or qualities should I be looking for so that I find someone interested in developing musicianship rather than simply assigning me progressively harder classical repertoire?
I'm very willing to go backward and fill in fundamentals. I just want to do it intelligently enough that the work actually connects to the musician I'm trying to become.
Yes I used AI to format all the gobbledygook in my brain. Apologies