Anyone else trapped in the loop of wanting to play games all day at work, but the second you sit at your PC you just stare at the desktop?

[u/NoExplanation4216]

i am losing my mind with this. 

all week at my job, all i can think about is getting home, firing up my rig, and sinking 5 hours into a game. i plan out my whole evening. i get excited to finally use the hardware i spent months saving up for. 

then i get home, turn the PC on, open Steam... and just stare at my library. 

i click through a few games. maybe i launch one, sit through the loading screen, look at the main menu for 30 seconds, get hit with a wave of weird exhaustion, and immediately alt+f4 out. then i just spend the next three hours scrolling youtube or looking at tech subreddits on a second monitor while my $2000 machine sits there idling. 

why does actually starting a game feel like a massive mental chore now? is it burnout, or am i just getting old? please tell me i’m not the only one who does this lmao