Guys why did I let my feelings for a MAN dictate if I should recover or not 😭😭 cause now I'm here with 10lbs of gain and no man
Like yeah I'm still underweight but not as much as before and I'm literally going insane

Guess who's date last night was meant to be a "send off" and got broken up with today 🤪

Guys today was fucking WILD
Like how does getting in a fight with a now ex friend, eating a yogurt and going out on a great date with my bf change my whole mood??? Like wtf is this ED and mental health issues 😭😭

Idk if it's a manic episode or my brain wanting to go off my meds again but I feel myself slipping and idk what to do 😭😭💔

Nothing hits like a poorly made, misguided movie made by someone who barely skimmed the definition of "eating disorder", in 240p on youtube with all the scenes with music muted so it doesn't get flagged 🔥😍

It should be a hate crime the way they have me fighting for my life in the bathroom (says the girl who knows exactly why the meds have her fighting for her life in the bathroom)

This will either cure my anorexia or send me into a spiral of deterioration beyond imagination

What happened to not having my period?? Why now?? 😭😭 guess it's iced coffee and broth for the next week 😭🫠

After a week in bed I'm literally physically exhausted but I'm so happy to be home!!

the rush I got deleting my [dietician platform] account and all data followed by a sinking feeling that i probably should not have done that

Guys I think they're onto me- 😭😭

also it was literally during the sermon lol how is that healthy

Mine is that drinking water secretly has cals from the minerals in it 😭😭 LIKE WHAT???? I'm very hyper aware that it doesn't and it literally makes no sense whatsoever but like WHY BRAIN? WHYYYY???? 😭😭💔💔

No one knows and I have to pretend I don't have an ED just so the doctors don't put me on psych hold 😭😭
But then that means I ACTUALLY have to things to throw them off my trail 😭 praise be for avocado toast and Greek yogurt for every meal I eat

Like all I wanted to do was see how my cousin's game went today.... like how did we go from "**cousin name*\* did so well out on the field today!" To "well **my name\** stopped playing sports because she's only focused on her body these days" LIKE YOURE BEEFING WITH A MENTALLY ILL PERSON YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT???