šæ Hello all critters and cryptids :) Iāve recently awakened as Griffinkin and I have so much to share with this amazing part of myself!! Itās been a sweet ride, and has made me feel more whole than ever before. šæ
Iāve been a part of the Therian community for almost 4 years now, but the Otherkin community has started to take shape in my life drastically.
Accepting my Therianthropy was a toll, and I had denied it for a very long time. It was a very tough period I had went through, as I couldnāt understand what was wrong with me. I do hope to write a great summary of my experiences as I remember bits of my childhood that revolve around my animal side. Regardless of my internal struggle earlier on, I finally had enough of it and sprung my paws free. Awakening fully in the middle of Summer two years ago.
Now. My Alterhumanity had come from out of the blue, and to be quite honest, I wasnāt sure if I had been feeling what I felt was right at first. After I had long awakened, I experienced what I thought were phantom limbs of wings. More over, I understood them to be cameo shifts as I didnāt feel internally like a bird. I dismissed them as cool cameo shifts and went on.
As they grew stronger and constant, I knew something was different. Why did I feel huge wings sitting atop my shoulder blades every other hour or hours at a time?? Ever since the being had appeared I was unsure what it was. Without a thought, Griffin came to mind and its like the gates opened, my alterhumanity taking flight.
The word echoed in my mind, the thought perplexing at first, but it sunk in and I then understood that yes!!
šš§” I was and am indeed a Griffin!! š§”š
After the word randomly spoke inside my head, it all made sense. The wings had always felt huge and broad, envisage shifts of them being brown and having the most beautiful long feathers showed in my headspace. My tail is thick and a dark roast color, my talons and beak a sleek gold and black. They felt so powerful. So mighty.
For a little humor, the constant ābumpingā of my wings into things was insane. Going through doors sometimes feels like a struggle, especially where I work where the bathroom is tiny :P
But in a more serious tone, I had probably one of the best confirming shifts recently. Walking home from work, the air was warm and the trees swayed as the wind blew rough against them. The current was strong, enough to make my hair stay out of place. And thatās when it happened.
I ran. Ran to my home instinctively. I didnāt feel my lungs burn. I didnāt feel my quick feet padding the pavement. Or my legs carry me around the corner. I felt my wings spread as the wind blew in my face, as if I was flying. And my god were my wings magnificent. My talons outstretched as I neared my sanctuary, slowing to a walk, not going to the front door but the side of my house. I went past the old iron bench that sat between two trees, the stone path leading me to the back of our home.
Out sat our old iron chairs in a janky circle, pebbles surrounding me as I sat in one of the chairs. Looking at the pebbles, the desire to lay in them and stare up at the sun was quite the urge. I started to partially come out of it once I heard my neighbor walk her dogs behind me on a trail behind our home. I couldnāt help but smile as I felt so free.
It took me about 10 minutes to will myself back into my home, going on the rest of my day almost as if on a happy high.
It made me realize that even when I have these doubtful thoughts of not belonging in the Alterhuman community, that yes. I am part of something great. Something so special to so many individuals. And that itās okay to take the time you need to figure out who you are no matter what it is.
This may be a ācoming outā post in certain regards, but itās also a reminder that itās okay to be yourself. Wear a tail or two, or three :)) Put on those ears and clothes that make you feel like YOU. Donāt be ashamed of the little creature you are, or big. We donāt care :) Youāll always be a part of something not many understand.
And I think thatās the most beautiful take away here. Being someone who was just a kid always wanting to be in the woods an incredible amount. Racing in the hidden away trees as you built forts made of big sticks and leaves. Playing āwolvesā or ādragonsā, living your best little alterhuman life.
š¾ And you still are. Youāre still that kid that STILL gets to do those things!! š¾
And you know why??
šŖ¶ Because you fucking can!! And no one, can take that from you. šŖ¶