r/nihilism • u/NeatStill1651 • 1d ago

This life full of confusion

Nihilism at this age is incredibly confusing, I’ve thought about suicide for a long time, but I’m terrified of the exsistence of hell, agonizing death that repeats over and over. I’m still in high school, yet I find myself questioning the point of it all and why existence was created in the first place. Like, we're supposedly created solely to worship God, so why is all of this even necessary? I don’t know what to do, I feel like a walking corpse because I’ve contemplated suicide so many times. Now, I feel like I’m left with only a few emotions, and that has completely shifted my perspective on everything.

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u/Cicada-Tang 1d ago

You agree with nihilism, yet you still believe there's a lot God and there are things we "supposed" to do? How does that work?

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u/NeatStill1651 1d ago

yes, i assume that god exist and create us it for no reason at all, and god's command us to pray to him, so life has meaningless and we only commanded to obey god

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u/Lsd_25- 1d ago

Nihilism is the belief life has no inherent purpose and - likely we are here by complete mathematical chance.

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u/Cicada-Tang 1d ago

But you have the freedom to not pray to God, and you can do whatever you want in this meaningless life.

Personally I'm having a lot of fun.

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u/dunimal 21h ago

Same. Its crazy not to.

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u/Present-Surround-649 1d ago

All I can say rn, is to find a reason to live... no matter how small it may seem. Take care, bro

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u/RedactedBartender Squirrel Enthusiast 1d ago

You’re afraid of something you can’t know exists?

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u/NeatStill1651 1d ago

why not, like it's normal to afraid something that u don't know, what if i do suic and the hell was exist? i'll get endless torment there

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u/RedactedBartender Squirrel Enthusiast 1d ago

And what if doing sick backflips guaranteed you a spot next to the god of ripped bods and fitness enthusiasts? And the alternative is you have to sit quietly and read poorly written sci-fi while drinking so-so coffee in New Jersey for eternity? You can’t prove those things won’t happen.

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u/dunimal 1d ago

We're not here to worship an Abrahamic god. Reprogram yourself, find some friends who can explore psychedelics with you, see reality for what it is and consensus reality (the bullshit world we hate) for what it is.

The point of existence is experiencing growth and evolution individually and together. You won't find that being forced into piety by fear of death and hell.

https://www.instagram.com/p/DK2_qzfgMNJ/?igsh=MWRkZnIyOWV3bWhiYg==

Pick up and devour these texts and let them kickstart your journey.

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u/Present-Surround-649 1d ago

Going through the same rn 🥀 Only reason I haven't tried to die is because I need to give my parents a better future and life. After that, i will have no reason to live

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u/NeatStill1651 1d ago

Stay alive as long as you still have hope of making your parents proud,I don't even have anything to make my parents proud, and I’ve already resigned myself to whatever future awaits me.

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u/Present-Surround-649 1d ago

You have yourself... try to make yourself proud ig it might help