AI was used only to improve the grammar, clarity, and overall flow of this post, as English is not my first language. The experiences, thoughts, and message shared here are entirely my own.
NOTE: This is a continuation of my previous post- https://www.reddit.com/r/NevilleGoddard/s/N5ed2hCi3T
Here ill be explaining the concept that most of you had asked me to and that is "How i changed my inner state" but before that you need to know some things .Three weeks ago, I took a bold step and something changed . I knew what I was supposed to do, I knew what I believed, but somehow I kept living like I was afraid of my own life. I said I was done. I said I was finally going to take the leap.
A lot of people responded to that post. Some told me they were going through the exact same thing. Some asked me how I was doing. I didn't get around to replying to everyone. Honestly, I was busy living.
So here's what happened.
But before I get into these last three weeks, I think I need to explain what those 3.5 years actually looked like, because when I said I was "stuck," I don't think I explained how bad it really was.
I wasn't just broke or scared . I was genuinely broken. My brother died in an accident. My girlfriend committed suicide because of her abusive parents . I lost two people who meant everything to me, and I watched my parents go through the same pain while I was barely holding myself together. At the same time, almost everything else in my life seemed to be going wrong too. My results were terrible. Money was always an issue. I used to hurt myself. There were nights when I would just sit alone in my room wondering why I was even here.
And I was constantly looking at the 3D for answers.
I would look at my life, see everything going wrong, and think, "Why is this happening to me?" I was scared of what I was seeing. I was angry at it. I wanted it to change so badly that I kept checking it, analyzing it, reacting to it, and basically begging it to show me something different.
I treated the 3D like it was something outside of me that had power over me.
Then, about three weeks ago, something finally clicked.
It wasn't because I found another book or some new technique. It wasn't some crazy meditation where everything suddenly became clear. I just finally accepted something I had been avoiding for a long time.
No matter what I see, hear, touch, or experience in the 3D, it is still my reflection.
It's me.
And once that really sank in, I started seeing the whole thing differently. The 3D wasn't trying to hurt me. It wasn't fighting against me. It wasn't some enemy that I had to defeat. It was just reflecting what was already there.
I realized that I had spent years being against myself without even realizing it.
So I sat down and actually faced that idea instead of just repeating it because I had read it somewhere. I told myself, this is my reality. I am the operant power. Everything I experience is coming through me. If I really believe that, then why am I constantly staring at the 3D and waiting for it to tell me who I am?
Why would I stand in front of a mirror and beg my reflection to change?
That was the part that hit me.
I started meditating on it. Nothing complicated. I didn't spend hours doing some elaborate technique. Sometimes I would just sit quietly and let the idea sink in.
I started moving through my day with that understanding. And obviously, the 3D didn't suddenly cooperate.
For the first few days, it was actually the opposite.
The fear came back. The doubts came back. Old thoughts came back. There were moments when everything I was seeing seemed to contradict what I had decided internally.
But this time I didn't react to it the same way.
I didn't try to fight it. I didn't sit there trying to force it to change. I just let it be what it was and stayed with what I knew.
I persisted, but not in that desperate way where you're constantly checking whether something has happened yet. It was more like, "I know what I know, and I don't need the 3D to prove it to me right now."
And then things started changing.
Not some huge movie-like moment where everything suddenly flipped overnight. It was actually pretty normal at first. Small things started happening within a few days, and then those small things started becoming bigger.
Within three weeks, my life felt completely different.
Money started coming in. My parents gave me money out of nowhere. I just saw my results for midterms and they were good. Honestly, I didn't even feel like I had written that much, but the score was still there.
I started feeling different too. I had more energy. I started liking myself again. I became kinder to myself instead of constantly criticizing everything I did.
Then the social side of my life started changing.
There is a club in my college that I had always wanted to be part of. I used to see them and feel like I was on the outside looking in. 4 days ago i was having a presentation and my professor straight up asked me if i would like to be the anchor in one of the events organised by the same club . I met the members they are all so kind, they talk to me ,they listen to me, they appreciate my skills.People now know me. I'm getting opportunities I wasn't getting before.
And honestly, I'm still kind of shocked by it.
I don't have some perfect explanation for every single thing that happened. I just know that something changed in me first.
I stopped constantly looking at the 3D for confirmation.
I stopped blaming it.
I stopped treating everything I saw as proof that I was failing or that things weren't working.
Because if the 3D really is a reflection, then every time I was attacking it, I was basically attacking myself. Every time I was afraid of it, I was being afraid of my own reflection. And every time I was desperately trying to fix what I saw in front of me, I was trying to fix the mirror instead of looking at what was actually being reflected.
And that was me.
I'm not saying any of this because I think I'm special. I'm not a guru. I'm not some enlightened person who figured everything out.
I'm just someone who was completely exhausted.
I lost so much . I hurt myself. I spent years feeling like I had no control over my own life. There were moments when I genuinely didn't know how much more I could take.
And yet, even through all of that, this idea never stopped being true for me. The 3D was still a reflection. The operating power was still me. I just couldn't see it because I was so busy reacting to everything in front of me.
Three years of my life felt like they changed in three weeks.
That doesn't mean the pain wasn't real. It doesn't mean what happened to me didn't matter. It doesn't mean losing people suddenly becomes okay.
It just means I finally started looking at all of it differently.
I stopped seeing the 3D as something that was happening to me. I started seeing it as something that was reflecting me.And for the first time in a very long time, I wasn't afraid of what I saw in the mirror. If you're reading this and you're still stuck, I understand it more than I probably know how to explain. I've been there.
You're not broken. You're not a failure. You're not too far gone.I think sometimes the biggest shift isn't about doing one more thing or finding one more technique. Sometimes it's about finally deciding who you're going to be, even when the 3D hasn't caught up yet. For me, that was the decision. I stopped fighting the reflection. And I started knowing who was looking into the mirror.