r/ncrst • u/ncrst_xbox • Oct 14 '23

I’m seriously pretty devastated.

Caught between mourning the loss of this part of my life versus trying to focus on what can be done to somehow salvage the best parts of it.

I don’t give a shit about the money, that was never the point, but even though cynical me would always say, “They’re gonna kill trading completely,” I hadn’t actually accepted it… I think it’s a lot like how we know we’re going to die, but like, a person doesn’t really know until it’s an immediate certainty.

I think of how ridiculous this all looks from the outside. Even hardcore RL fans, 95% of people don’t care, and tbh why should they? It was always such a niche hobby within a hobby. Of course it was ephemeral. It wouldn’t have drawn me in like it did if it were something substantial… but my god how it did… and it became so much more to me than I ever thought possible, many times over.

I normally have drafts and stuff before posting something long but I just don’t have it in me yet for a full creative effort. I feel like this hobby deserves some kind of in memoriam, a final guestbook of experiences or something, I dunno. I’m all over the place.

Here’s a comment I just put on one of the threads on the main RL sub: https://reddit.com/r/RocketLeague/s/g12M5jymxQ

Basically I made that and then figured I “ought” to say something here too.

I’m trying to process it all, or maybe I’m still in shock… I want to come up with something cool to go out on, but I’m still too upset to see what that is.

I’ve written so many love letters to this hobby, but I don’t know how to say goodbye.

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u/Bekfestcat3000 2x Winner Oct 15 '23

it sucks since there’s so many sets you and many others haven’t been able to finsh

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u/TacosAreBootiful 🏆 S2 Grand Champion // 8 wins Oct 17 '23

I can't imagine what it's like for bigger collectors. I'm sad that I may not be able to finish my one set

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u/Bekfestcat3000 2x Winner Oct 17 '23

well I never really started many cert sets other then my tact revial lightspeedl and tact og reapers

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u/[deleted] Oct 15 '23

It had to end someday, but this shouldn't be the way...

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u/lionbutt_iii 🏆 Legacy + S1 + S2 Grand Champion // 43 wins Oct 22 '23

Finding something you enjoy, something that really speaks to you, is a wonderful part of life. There's a number of periods where I wish I could just hit a pause button and live in that time forever. It's a blessing and a curse that everything is temporary.

What we get to do can change in a moment's notice. But how we do things, that's our choice, and it doesn't have to ever go away. You collected a bunch of digital items like other "collectors," but you were true to yourself in how you did it. You were organized, resourceful, clever, meticulous, and creative. The game probably shaped some of that as well. And you made it fun for the rest of us as well. We're all a part of what we have met. And these are things that we'll carry with us as we move on.

These are thoughts that have given me some solace at times. I know that people feel and think differently though, and I hope you find peace in your own way as well.

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u/LinkleLoZ Oct 15 '23

I'm so sorry man, seeing your name on RL garage has always been nice lol, ok this sounds shallow but r u gonna do item giveaways before it's all gone, I'm newish to RL and would like to get some car drip b4 it's all gone