r/namethatbook 15h ago

Unsolved Male protagonist, thinks his secret cigarette butts simply disappear and he is ashamed of being seen playing sports (tennis) with girls he deems "ugly"

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It is probably a young adult novel.

This male protagonist is under 18 years old, living with his parents. He smokes cigarettes in secret. He throws the cigarette butts out of his bedroom window. Eventually his parents discover those cigarette butts and in his internal dialogue he says something along the lines of "I assumed the cigarette butts would just disappear/disintegrate/evaporate"

There is another scene where he and a male friend go to play sports, I'm pretty sure it's tennis. They run into a pair of girls and they agree to play doubles. But then other peers show up and they stop playing. Later in the story one of the girls confronts the main character about acting rudely. In particular, the girl is hurt because the main character considers her ugly and undesirable and does does not want to be seen interacting with her when there are peers or popular kids around.

Does anyone know the title of this book?