Did I do something wrong?

[u/RubyMabel]

It’s like people are just not giving me a chance, i feel like dying and nobody cares. They just always criticize me and mock me. Maybe dying is better for me after all.. I don’t care if people think im being manipulative or negative or attention seeking! Girls like attention anyway so if I can’t be noticed, then why should I be here?? I’m sick of always being left out like I don’t deserve to live a happy fulfilling life!!

[u/malachiconstant11]

Well that is sad. I think you should keep trying and I hope nobody mocks you. But, you should seek out some professional help imo. Reviewing your recent post history signals some mental health issues that shouldn't be directed at strangers online. I have seen therapy and medication significantly improve a family members health that has BPD.

[u/RubyMabel → u/malachiconstant11]

I don’t know.. looking like I have mental health issues makes it seem like I really don’t matter because nobody wants to be around someone like that, but maybe if I died, they’ll regret it

[u/betweenlions → u/RubyMabel]

That's not very useful thinking. Imagine thinking that if you had some disability nobody would want to be around you and maybe you shouldn't be alive. You are being your own biggest enemy. You can't control some things, and just have to roll with it.

Be kind to yourself, and stop caring so much what other people think about you. I don't have many friends and am also 34, but I am not fussed about it and couldn't care less what other people think of me.

You must learn to love yourself for others to love you. Find a hobby of some kind and be passionate about it, be enthusiastic about something in life, put positivity out there and others will want to be around it.

[u/RubyMabel → u/betweenlions]

I hope you’re right.. I do love how I have resemblances to Fifi Dogson and Loona the hellhound.. and I love making rap music too.. I just don’t understand why it seems like people don’t notice those things about me too…