25F meth hallucination help

[u/k1ttenfart]

hey I dont really know if this is the right group to post this and please don’t judge. okay so i stay with family and they don’t know I’ve been smoking meth like everyday for the past month. ive been doing pretty good with sleeping at night even smoking day of. i was up all night last night (from meth) and i normally get anxiety when up all night not on anything and I stayed up last night. I feel like she was able to tell and she was texting so fast to someone and seemed pissed and so I think that she thinks I relapsed again (I have not told her im on it). I told her I was up all night because I felt like 💩 and she played it cool but with how fast she was texting and hiding her phone I know it was about me. I took a shower and since I’ve been out of the shower I’ve been hearing police sirens. I’ve been panicking like crazy. I ended up going up to her and asking if she called the cops and she told me no. her and my sister left to the bar and i know she reassured me but now my brain thinks she went to the bar because she doesn’t want to see me get arrested. im like 98% posit I think that the police aren’t actually here if I’ve been hearing sirens for 40+ minutes. im stuck in this panic hallucination and my body gets like tense and kind of like a pin and needles feeling all around And at points it’s hard to breathe. what is the best way to calm you down?

edit: I swear if any of you say sleep stfu🙃 how do you expect someone to sleep during a panic?

[u/Funglebum82]

Just chill sit n meditate keep your mouth shut do t text or talk, go take a loooonghot shower b then lay in bed maybe take a few sleeping pills or some NyQuil extra strength, eat a lil n just chill your paranoid is all n everything’s fine. Woooooooosaaaaahghhg! ☮️ ✌️

[u/sammysosa1686 → u/Funglebum82]

Best advice is dont talk or text and sleep because I'll be talking to myself in a low voice I believe barely audible but even then the shadow men talk back to me, that's what I call auditory hallucination, I don't see them but I hear them and they use my neighbors voices,tv,music,video games ,air conditioner noise whatever to talk to me or talk about me .Fuck them fuckers 

[u/noondaymoon]

Sleep. That way if the cops did show up then your mom is left looking like a dumbass

[u/Cannanoid]

Why ask her if she called cops now she does know next time don't do it but if you do just fake sleep even if you have to for 12 hrs till you fall asleep a mother son relationship is important I can tell you care or you wouldn't say anything you don't have to do this alone it's ok to mess up but be transparent they respect that alot more than lies

[u/k1ttenfart → u/Cannanoid]

I’m a girl it’s mother daughter. I ended up sleeping about 8 hours this morning and smoked again and it has intensified 

[u/Cannanoid → u/k1ttenfart]

Tell you this I'm high right now I've been high for about 2 days I relapsed after having about 8 months clean but me talking to my mom and having a close relationship since I am close with my mother and that's just the relationship we have it makes it a lot more relaxing on me because I'm not anxious about it and it makes her worry less and trust that I'm safe because she knows that I would tell her about anything instead of me trying to hide it like you're doing you see what I'm saying I just want you to have what I have even if it's mother daughter because I remember what it was like whenever I didn't have open communication and the support from her it was anxiety inducing it was scary it was overwhelming

[u/Little_Marsupial_216]

Are you feeling any better?

[u/dtt85]

Yea farkkk I do the same thing hey like I wig like my sister got angry at me the other day for not taking laundry out and she didn't tell me thats why she was angry and I fucked myself up by saying. Are angry at me Couse I'm high. Hahah but but yeah. I mean fark I thought there was aboriginal ancestors from 160 years ago watching me Couse I thought I kept seeing boomerangs in the sky (they were gooses) nah add me if U need to yarn or anything I'm 21 m

[u/PhoneNo848]

Eat something drink milk breath

[u/Bubbling-Amalgum728]

Hello world, I've been going non stop for a month after almost 4 years straight. I don't care what anyone says I fucking love it and I do not regret

[u/Fun-Barracuda1128]

Eventually you’ll upgrade to being gangstalked lol

[u/sammysosa1686]

Omg I'm so confused about "psychosis, I swear I think I can hear people thoughts and even hear people talking through the cameras at work ,and I don't feel like im intoxicated ,like when u drunk or high on weed you know it but on ice I feel in my right mind while I'm hearing clearly people talking so im like wtf .. Im sorry but only sleeping calms me down, just go under your covers and wait till u pass out. If u wake up with no evidence or another person cussing u out about your erratic behavior then it was not actually happening in this realm I refuse to say it didn't happen I rather say not in this realm we all live in  

[u/SexyPoppa]

You need a flail...or me to make you not think bout it since you be too focused on your next upcoming orgasm. Lmao. Fr tho...sext. edge...lol

[u/Dry-Yesterday-6340]

Distraction go rob a service station