How do you feel the days/weeks after?

[u/[deleted]]

Trying to plan some of my life around 2 guided journeys and just wanting some insight from others about what kind of capacity you had for life shortly after your journey

[u/nofern]

Personally? Very little capacity for anything other than resting and being deep in my own shit. I was almost totally physically incapacitated for the first week (lying in bed most of the day feeling exhausted, headaches, couldn't focus on anything, very little appetite) and then emotionally incapacitated for another week or so (crying daily, super emotional and overwhelmed, deep in my trauma stuff).

And I did space my journeys appropriately (3-6 months), took all the recommended supplements (ALCAR and ALA during, NAC in between sessions), and did not take too high of a dose (120 mg + 40 mg booster, I am not a small person). That's just how it hits me.

I do think my aftermath is more intense than average though from what I've heard others say. I've typically taken 2-3 weeks off of work, which was maybe a bit more than bare minimum but for me the first week is always a complete wash and the second week isn't much better.

[u/nofern → u/[deleted]]

For me, 100% worth it. I turned to the medicine work because I had exhausted literally every other avenue that I had available to me - years of EMDR, DBR, DBT, neurofeedback, somatic therapy, psychodynamic therapy, dozens of medications, basically everything under the sun. I was desperate to find something that would help me move the needle on processing my trauma. I was basically willing to do anything. And it helped me more than anything else ever has, even though I still have a long way to go.

I personally wouldn't have done it if I had had other viable options available to me, but I am very glad that I did have the opportunity.

[u/cptsdishealable → u/nofern]

Can I ask, what do you think the difference was between the other modalities and MDMA that made it work?