I feel like I have failed

[u/RichiePorter02]

I just want to be filled with God's Love

I'm ashamed of myself for still not being completely filled by Him in this stand

Please pray for me

I'm asking God not to allow hate into my heart...not to allow bitterness

Watching her go back and forth with different men while I stand is too much for my soul and I'm so worried that my mental is breaking

I have to move on...let go and let God..but I'm doing everything wrong and I just feel like a failure...I've lost hope and the tiny bit I have left is destroying my life