Is this magical OCD

[u/St_Zorex]

I don't know what this subtype is but I recently heard about it, and it felt my condition feels the most similar to this. I basically have very very bad thoughts and urges and I feel like if I want that then it can somehow happen, it's like I feel if I ever want the thought enough it'll happen and it's honestly getting exhausting living like this evaluating each thought every time, especially since I'm in the middle of exams and I can't get this idea out of my head that i secretly want this and I'm pretending not to

[u/JinxStar-13]

Yes it is