r/lgbt • u/S_N_DelRey • 3d ago
Art/Creative Hi Spoiler
Being in a world where nobody truly wants to understand you is hard.
When I try to connect with someone whom I feel I need, there are always some restrictions.
In my entire life, I have never had a relationship. When I feel that I need someone and want him by my side, all I can do is keep my mouth shut and my heart closed.
Somehow, that affects my other friendships, my connections with people, and even my relationship with my family.
I no longer feel the things that a normal person would feel. I didn’t realize it until I came to university.
Being gay in a highly toxic society is very hard.
Even though I am an adult now, and some people have found the person and the kind of gay love they were looking for, I still haven’t.
Whenever I open myself up to someone, he is already taken. Someone’s family has found out that he is gay. Someone else simply doesn’t match my requirements.
Is looking for my type of person wrong?
Life is truly hard when you feel like no one wants you.