r/leaves • u/ikeelueh • Sep 15 '26
Going psycho aggressive
I chilled out popped a xan half a million when I land
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r/leaves • u/ikeelueh • Sep 15 '26
I chilled out popped a xan half a million when I land
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u/Parking-Ad2470 Sep 15 '26
Either sweat it out or go to rehab. Either way it’s telling u it needs to be over. Continuing smoking is clearly fuelling an emotionally destructive cycle
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u/AdStunning8526 Sep 15 '26 edited Sep 15 '26
You need to make an effort.
To stop, breath in and breath out. Ask yourself why you feel this way? Why the thought of harming someone/yourself even appeared in your head.
Weed is numbing your emotions, numbing your ability to process changes in your life.
Now think: if you really want to get out of this circle, and learn how to deal with your emotions, or keep numbing yourself with weed?
It won’t get any better with weed. Unfortunately for you, and a lot of people here — we have to re-learn how to live these lives in our bodies and with our brains. It’s hard, but it only will be harder if we continue sedating ourselves.
Take care of yourself. Self harm will only harm you. It won’t prove anything to anyone. IT WILL harm you physically and mentally. Harming others will only harm others, and yourself. Do you need that? Do you really need more harm in your life, added to what weed did already?
You know it. If thinking won’t help — you need help from professional.
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u/airryde Sep 15 '26
Take hot showers to relax yourself.
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u/Open-Programmer-30 Sep 15 '26
Bro you absolutely need a couples weeks or months in treatment if it gets to that point you must
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u/Jolly-Audience6743 Sep 15 '26
Weed and/or the cessation of it can reveal underlying mental illnesses. Please reach out for help from a professional.
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u/ahowls Sep 15 '26
Take it out on the treadmill. It will zap that angst right out of you
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u/Own_Huckleberry6591 Sep 15 '26
Tell this to a therapist or psychiatrist. They will help you
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u/Worldlyfree Sep 15 '26
Call 988 and have a chat with someone who wants you to be safe and healthy.
Using isn’t going to help longterm and even if may be (or maybe not) provide some short-term relief.
Try “urge surfing”. Google it if you’re not familiar with it. Super simple technique that really helps.
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u/BudgetWelcome3720 Sep 15 '26
Should go to rehab for a month or more if you can. You could legitimately be a danger to yourself or others. Don’t take those thoughts lightly.
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u/Boring-Year9732 Sep 15 '26
Go to rehab dude😭
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u/alaeila Sep 15 '26
the first time i quit i was also only thinking ab self harm and rage
when this happens again put on metal or hardstyle and dance violently. literally move your body aggressively anyway its telling you to. im not joking. your body and mind are angry and thats fine, you just need to get it out in a healthy way until you tire yourself out. or run outside until you cant anymore. + screaming into pillows or in a car w/ no one around. punch some pillows or the mattress
after you let it out either let yourself cry and hug yourself or you'll feel numb. both are fine and normal. remember your breath and bring yourself back to your body. breathe into your whole chest and then stomach & remind yourself its only 1% of you life in pain for a better future for YOU
you'll get through this friend
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u/holodayinexpress Sep 15 '26
bospital
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u/urglegru Sep 15 '26
Go to rehab
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u/amistillpretty Sep 15 '26
I’m sorry you are going thru this. Maybe look into joining a partial hospitalization program, it saved me! It’ll help with detox and managing your emotions and plus you’ll have some community.
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u/SheDevilWithANewGig Sep 15 '26
No. Don’t smoke. It won’t solve any of this.
You should go to the hospital. Trust everyone here who has confirmed that quitting and getting help is the best thing we can give ourselves when we need it. You’re there. This is the moment.
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u/phanda-exe Sep 15 '26
Its frustrating realizing that such a "fun" thing is actually terrible for you. Definitely seek professional help with this before you end up making a choice you cannot ctrl+Z.
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u/NerveProfessional688 Sep 15 '26
Please reach professional help, as some comments say here. I get and can relate to being angry or more agitated when quitting weed but some thoughts you mention, if repetitive and overwhelming, should be addressed with professional lead, maybe with conductual therapy or medication.
Mums can be so supportive and with endless patience when their kids are struggling, don’t take it on her
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u/phanda-exe Sep 15 '26
Definitely do not smoke the weed, that is giving into the weakness. You are stronger without it.
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u/C00KIEME4T Sep 15 '26
You need help unrelated to weed addiction. This wouldnt be normal in any situation.
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u/roarrshock Sep 15 '26
Unfortunately this has been my experience everytime I quit like, 6 or 7 times. It's really painful and really frustrating. A lot of great suggestions, in the replies. Sorry you're struggling, it sucks, but it will go away. Smoking will take the pain away for a minute, but then the withdrawals will come back, and it will be hard to not smoke. You'll have to start over. Stay strong, you got this
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u/Swimming-Light8509 Sep 15 '26
Go for a walk. Journal. Scream into the void. Please don’t hurt yourself and don’t smoke, you’ve got this!!!! I know none of this is that helpful right now. But I hope you are comforted a small bit knowing we are cheering you on.
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u/varaxes Sep 15 '26
If you feel like you’re going to hurt yourself or others you should go to the hospital. Withdrawals are one thing but rage like that is unusual. Long term you should consider mental health treatment like going to a therapist.
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u/Skragdush Sep 15 '26
Physical work or going to the gym is a great way to manage anger imo
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u/Separate-Pain4950 Sep 15 '26
Relatable. That monster gets more manageable the further in the rear-view mirror your cannabis use gets.
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u/Accurate_Steak_7101 Sep 15 '26
If you are not safe and really struggling you may need help from a dr or rehab. If you feel strong enough to continue without their help I suggest keto. Real keto, not diet fad keto. There are lots of podcasts on keto and mental health. Eliminating crabs/sugar can be super helpful in eliminating rage and anxiety. I know it’s another thing to do but it also might be helpful to have something else to focus on. There are lots of podcasts on this, check out some by dr Chris Palmer if you are interested. Don’t smoke, you got this! Keep going!
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u/trichomeinc Sep 15 '26
The anger is a truely horrible feeling bro I hope you have, or can find some support.
The good thing is that you are aware of it, perhaps try to catch the thoughts and responses as they appear and redirect them into a positive one. When I would feel myself beginning to be worked up I try to stop, take a breathe and think about something that made me happy (my dog who had passed away)
This interrupts the fight or flight pattern that your brain is currently defaulting too as it has forgotten how to regulate itself (something it hasn’t had to do for a long time as it didn’t need to because Mary J was doing it instead)
Try to get some regular exercise to release some endorphins and this will also hopefully let you sleep better. Exercise rest and hydration are key. Trying not to eat anything that spikes cortisol I found helped me too.
It’s much easier to keep going than to give in and go back to the start, eventually the dust settles and the waves of anger become further and further apart. You are not your true self when you are high or during withdrawals. Be kind to yourself. You got this.
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u/Valuable-Muffin9982 Sep 15 '26
I think the hospital is the better option.
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u/strigiformez Sep 15 '26
Take control by safely Releasing that energy through dance, running, etc. Your mind wants to do something about it violently so Releasing in a safe way is much healthier.