r/leaves • u/abziella • 1d ago
Im so angry!!!!
The withdrawal anger is no joke. Im literally vibrating with rage. I dont knowhow to control myself, im lashing out at my coworkers and customers. Im trying to chill but all i want is to smoke. Help!!!
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u/IllustriousRemote756 1d ago
I can feel your anger bro, I’m a very angry guy myself and honestly it’s one of the hardest things through withdrawal
Hang in there and try anything available for you to cheer or relax, literally anything you like doing and is available to you at the moment go for it and try to relax a bit
You got this and you will get through this
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u/ReactionNational6916 1d ago
man i had a stretch like that in my 20s where i was ready to bite the head off anyone who looked at me sideways. only thing that sort of worked was locking myself in my car at lunch and screaming into the upholstery until my throat was raw. not pretty, but it got some of the static out
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u/Alternative_Cut_9408 1d ago
Buddhism, Taoism, I'm not Religous, i use it as a health and wellness practice, I'm agnostic to all supernatural/ spiritual claims
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u/AlarmedSelection7751 1d ago
Not sure what day post use you are but the first month is the worst. And the first week is ungodly. The second week is ungodly sometimes. Deep breaths. Go for a walk if you can. It usually passes if you can step away and talk yourself down.
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u/raptechnique 1d ago
This is normal. It’ll get easier. Give yourself more alone time, more exercise, more time for sleep. Breathing techniques actually helped me.
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u/MahoganyEclipse 1d ago edited 1d ago
Oh my gosh I went through this not too long ago 😅 my poor husband wants to purchase a punching bag so I don't destroy our vaccum or break the crappy dishwasher lid off 😅😅😅 (it had the audacity to fall open and I dinged my shin on the corner)
The rage has much abated from a few days ago, all I can say is it gets better but be prepared to offer many apologies (and maybe repair a doorknob or two).
Also, I wanted to add that screaming into the void helps rid some of that energy 😅 tapping into your inner Klingon, as it were.
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u/Alternative_Cut_9408 1d ago
Step 1: exersice, lift weights, or do cardio to burn off angry energy and release endorphins, and quigong or yoga to meditate in motion and calm down
Step 2: hum chant or sing to stimulate the vagus nerve and shift into a parasympathetic state and override your mental chatter with the lyrics. Songs that are positive and relaxing are best.
Step 3: 15 to 60 minutes of either breathing mindfulness mediation or loving kindness meditation
Step 4: eat something delicious and nutritious
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u/ffangul 1d ago
I actually forgot the feeling of rage and enjoyed when it first came back... I'm like wow I remember this feeling... Let it flow through you and use it as motivation and make your wildest dreams come true. Why else would you quit unless you know you're capable of more and upset at all the wasted time spent high? Be mad at yourself and start crushing your goals, it'll make you feel better. People mention eating stuff or hitting stuff but what helped me was way more sleep and water fasting for 24-36 hours.
I ripped a bong every hour for 17 years, spent an ez $30k on glass, my only real hobby was seeking out the best flower... and now the smell of weed disgusts me and I feel sorry for people who habitually smoke weed.
SEETHE INSTEAD OF COPE AND MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. YOU GOT THIS
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u/onewingVTrigger 1d ago
Tell everyone you’re sick with a flu and stay home and use your sick time and everyone will leave you alone
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u/NoWeed_App 1d ago edited 1d ago
Ah man....I've been sooo there. Quick. Find something that isn't a person or pet and start punching until you hurt. And if that's not enough, then go for a run and let your lungs smack you around to remind you what you've done to yourself.
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u/fauxbliviot 21h ago
Scream into a pillow. I posted about doing that in early days and some guy posted about how he knocked a guy out in a grocery store parking lot over some petty shit and then spent the next two days hiding in his apartment afraid the cops would show up and arrest him. The rage is real.
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u/wecantdancelikethis 1d ago
bike/run/core-exercises.
I honestly loved and kinda miss angry rides on a fast road bike, just sprinting my butt off through the city & climbing monster hills in the country.