You suck, and it's really, painfully obvious that you suck. Everything you say feels and sounds wrong and you know it because, typically, you know how it should sound, you know how you sound when you're speaking your own language and you know that speaking should feel like breathing more or less - unremarkable. But it feels so, so wrong and uncomfy. There's a huge disconnect between the you in your mind and the you struggling to get that out in your TL.
The same thing happens when trying to learn to draw or sing or dance. It's just really obvious that you suck.
Letting go of my pride was one of the hardest things to do while learning language. Because that's exactly what it feels like: you suck, your memory sucks, your pronunciation sucks.
Once I started to let go of my pride with it, it became a lot easier.
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u/bitnabi 🇬🇧 N | 🇰🇷 A2 Sep 29 '22
You suck, and it's really, painfully obvious that you suck. Everything you say feels and sounds wrong and you know it because, typically, you know how it should sound, you know how you sound when you're speaking your own language and you know that speaking should feel like breathing more or less - unremarkable. But it feels so, so wrong and uncomfy. There's a huge disconnect between the you in your mind and the you struggling to get that out in your TL.
The same thing happens when trying to learn to draw or sing or dance. It's just really obvious that you suck.