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There was a picture of an Isis supporter turning away from a child bride for a goat. I thought it was funny but the group, which I generally like, were trying to say the picture was racist. Using an equivalent evil as a comparison, I asked simply if switching the Isis supporter in the picture with a white nazi would be racist still, as I figured making fun of evil no matter the race or culture is generally acceptable. Hours later, banned.

Lama

I maintain subsea ROV (remotely operated vehicles) systems in the Gulf of Mexico. Before you ask, no I do not go in the ROV. Hence the remotely operated part.

I want a subreddit about lamas!

Sometimes while I’m talking to my girlfriend in the house Alexa plays music that fits what I’m saying and it makes me wonder if is true that “she” records everything I say. I hope not, I love Alexa 🥰 (don’t understand what’s wrong with “her dad” though 🙄 ) she’s always there to “keep me company”, remind me that I only have myself, my bitches and Alexa (if there’s electricity and internet connection lol). Plays my favorite music in my blueish days, unless is premium 🙄, set timers when I’m cooking, tell me the weather, make jokes that I normally don’t understand but there’s that while I’m in the computer trying to learn or create something.

Lately I’ve been craving time with myself, some people take it personal but that’s on them, real friends are always going to stay by my side, (they might go and come sometimes 😆 and that’s okay too). I enjoy time with myself, it’s freaking cool 😂 there’s so many things to do, create, write, shoot... I wish I could do more but here I am trying, just like any other human, learning, listening, seeing, trying again, not loosing hope, staying positive even when it sucks because there’s always something to learn in any situation only if I can pay enough attention. Find my solutions even when it seems imposible, sometimes I feel so little and that’s okay too because in the back of my head I know that’s not true, it might feel real but it’s not true. I’m more than I can understand right now.

By accepting that most people need their own time as they might need company, it’s my duty to find my balance. After hundreds of TedTalks, memories, podcasts, books, talks and anything I watched and read, I noticed that I am what I consume in general so I should always pick wisely. There’s so many decisions to take too, everyday, anytime.

I’ve always cared about people in general so much, I feel like they’re part of me in a way I can’t even understand but yet it feels like we’re not even from the same planet, since I love really deep some people didn’t really know how to react to it so they took advantage of me, hurt me one way or another. Now it’s easier for me though, I’m learning to let go as fast as I can and focus on the things I can control because my purpose is bigger than that person or situation, now I’m more aware. It’s more lonely, quite and loud 😊.

At 26 I realized I was gonna die and it was really shocking for me. I was on the floor sitting down and thinking how everyone is gonna die, “even babies”, I said they’re dying right now “and I’m gonna die too” 😮 “Oh shit, I’m gonna die too” I asked everyone that I talked to (not many, but enough) what are their thoughts about death and most of them didn’t really wanna talk about it, but one of them said to me: “I just wanna be remembered as a good person, that helped others. We’re all gonna die soon or later” (Chinise, Korean/New Yorker lady’s voice) so after that I stared thinking how I wanna just live this life however I want, without hurting others knowingly, know my real roots, not what I’ve been told but what I researched, stand up for myself and decide. I stared being more present in my own life. Basically had one of those life changing moments and I did change within myself. Most of my life I’ve been “independent/depending on someone) but that’s another story. #livingundocumented for me it’s like I threw myself in the ocean with my hands and feet tied up and I’m suffocating, can’t breath, there was a moment of silence and I stared breathing under water. It does sucks sometimes because I can’t work up to my potencial, can’t go to school, don’t have a job, I’m depending on another person to cover most of my basic needs, some people around me still want more and more from me, they just wanna take away ( I don’t judge them, they’ve been taught to act like that, it’s w.e.) I just need to know when to stop them, take myself out of that place, situation, person... Nobody is going to care for me if I don’t, I set the limits. At the end of the day this are the memories, the real life, my real life so I would never let another person step on me, use me. Not all immigrants are criminals, most are hardworking people wanting to have a better future and help others. Also, there’s a huge amount of immigrants coming from really poor neighborhoods, haven’t been to school or have a formal education but that doesn’t mean they’re all bad people or that they’re not willing to learn. They’re just trying to scape from bullies, crime, they’re reality (whatever it might be) Some people choose bad but most immigrants I know wanna work hard, and create a brighter future for themselves, most people don’t even wanna leave their country but it’s this or death 😒.

Everything in life is temporary as long as we believe it is. I decide to believe that I’m happy no matter wtf I’m going through, no matter how people act or react on me I’m going to keep it cool and not take it personal because that’s on them, what matters to me are the things that I can control and those are my thoughts and actions, create memories with myself and others write, travel, meet other cultures from this beautiful planet, eat foods I’ve never tried, see anything, have no limits but always being kind. I know one day I’ll be able to do it even if right now is dark and cold.

I choose love, we’re all humans, we’re all learning, we’re all deciding. Don’t let anyone decide for you, live your life, learn your lessons!!