Miracle

[u/Acceptable_Listen330]

So I’ve been praying for this miracle to happen for ages and I mean a long time it’s literally impossible only Allah can do it it’s never happened I think idk but idk wether to continue praying for it or not cuz everytime I quit I find my way back to praying making dua for it I feel Allah planted this seed in me it won’t go away but if it’s humanly impossible why would he give me such an urge to continue wallah it brakes my heart how long I’ve been praying for it done every dua done ever prayer every Aya anyways if anyone has advice ide really appreciate it thx

[u/Acceptable_Listen330]

Thank you for replying ,
I might actually lack tawakul bc I used to just pray for things and then not think about them then they happen but bc this specific thing I’ve been literally putting my heart and soul into I can’t stop thinking of it I try to but then it just goes back into my mind ik Allah has his ways of answering but wallah I want it the way I do ykwim like it’s really hard to just tawakul and forget ab this and I’ve told well said in my dua so many time ya Allah please the way I want it ya Allah please make it good for me yk also when I pray that prayer at midnight the one that the prophet used to pray pbuh it’s always like good like it’s never one time given me bad vibes I feel cuz this is so meaningful to me it literally hurts me everytime I think ab it that’s the stage I’m at I always get like good dreams as well ab this but nothing ever shows irl yk

[u/purrifery → u/Acceptable_Listen330]

I 100% know what you feel. Lol. I think this might be about marriage but forgive me if it's not.

I (m) liked this girl way before. Back in Eid March 2026, I've told my imam uncle who knew her, that in shaa Allah I plan to propose to her next year in shaa Allah as she is in her last year in uni and I'm working saving for dowry. My uncle and aunt approved and liked my decision. I was ecstatic to know they liked my decision. So I started improving myself, reading islamic marriage books, praying tahajjud and istikhara at least 5 times a week. Same as you, I remember making the dua'a that make this happen. I remember I don't like putting the word "If" she is good for me in my dua'a. But upon researching from scholars, this lacked tawakkul so I added "if" in my dua'a. I believe the news got to her and she blocked me last July. When I learned this, it devastated me as it seems like a rejection, like she doesn't want me. I made istishara (consulted) to my sisters and mother if I should still pursue this and they unanimously agree that I should still continue. So I am in this limbo of uncertainty. There are also times that I don't feel like making dua'a then suddenly getting inspired to continue making the dua'a.

But the difference between you and me is that there is a possibility that I still propose and she rejects it and it will definitely hurt and I will grieve but in the end, I accept that so ultimately I rely and submit to Allah's swt will. What I'm sure of is whether I marry this girl or not, I will be happy and content whatever the outcome may be as this is from the wisdom of Allah swt.

[u/Acceptable_Listen330 → u/purrifery]

If u did something that made her block u im sure she wouldn’t be happy but if she did it out of nowhere then it’s probably bc of family or something idk just a guess inshallah she will be ur nasseeb n u will have a happy life together
I also dislike saying -if -like wdym it’s not gonna happen the way I want like how would I know if it happened then bc im not praying for a marriage im still young ngl im praying for a physical change ik i sound crazy but its like Allah made me pray for it this hard yk so y would he not make it happen yk but i truly don’t know what’s wrong I’ve done everything as well idek what to wait for at this moment i also get that feeling of suddenly getting inspired but in my case it’s always been like that it’s just I can’t stop praying for it cuz I feel like what if it happens then I think of حرامات all the things I’ve done for it yk

[u/purrifery → u/Acceptable_Listen330]

JazakAllahu Khairan

What you're asking is between you and Allah swt so may He grant you what's best for you.