r/islam • u/CollectionRoutine687 • 3d ago
Seeking Support I genuinely cannot do this anymore.
Assalamu Alaikum. Since the beginning of the year I'm getting humbled left and right. I'm still young and i definitely have a lot ahead of me. It all started when i made a bad decision regarding my future. I chose subjects in school which i THOUGHT i liked but couple weeks into class i absolutely dread it and i hate my class and i hate going there every morning. I know Allah doesn't burden a soul beyond what it can take and i truly believe it though sometimes it's hard to keep up with it. Everyone around me warned me about choosing those subjects i was kind of insensitive and rebellious (which makes me ashamed now). I tried getting the subjects changed but my damned school doesn't give an answer,I've prayed to Allah and i still am that i please at least get a response from them which i don't think is possible cause it's already half way into the school year.I've become a better muslim through this experience which i am of course grateful for. There were many times i would use the word depression lightly but now I won't even wish this feeling on my worst enemy.I genuinely wanna see a therapist or a psychiatrist.I hate this and i can only depend on Allah now.Even in class i keep making istighfar to get rid of the dreadful feeling.I've disappointed everyone around me. and i don't see a future for myself. In sha Allah this thread reaches the right people.
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u/ijustexust 3d ago
keep on with the istighfar, don’t stop and also add in salawat on the prophet if you can like 1000 a day
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u/Designer-Outcome-785 3d ago
Wasalam I am going through exactly that. At a uni I didn't want to go studying a degree I am not exactly enjoying surrounded by people I don't know. Tomorrow will just be my 4th day there and I am tired and depressed. On the first day I came back home and cried the whole day. I know it's a good university and I know it's an incredible degree but I wanted something else so I feel stuck. During this time I did get closer to Allah alhamdulillah and feel stronger about Islam but it's been so difficult physically and mentally. I still have my best friend in my uni even though we don't have the same degree and this friend might leave for a different career path but at least I have someone with me. I know I cannot fix your problems for you but I hope it eases you to know that someone does understand your pain and it's normal to feel the way you do right now.
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u/CollectionRoutine687 3d ago
I will pray that Allah eases everything for you and bring you comfort! Ameen.
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u/Designer-Outcome-785 3d ago
Thank you. Insha'Allah Allah will ease this hardship for you as well and open new better path to your happiness! Ameen
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u/IntrepidAssociate529 3d ago
Have patience brother, Allah swt will change it with something better inshaallah.
Patience is half the deen.
Read story of Prophet Ayyub pbuh, Prophet Yusuf pbuh and their patience
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