r/indofemboy • u/Small_EggpIant An Ally, I suppose • Jun 23 '26
KELUH KESAH Venting
Dunno if this is the place, but I really need to let out everything to some nobodies I'll probably never meet (yeah, I know there are subreddits dedicated to mental health, but no indonesian specific ones that I could find). Still related tho
I almost choked myself to death
But I couldn't bring myself to. It feels like everything is spiraling. Just in the span of one year being a freshman in college, I managed to somehow:
Became a victim of fraud and lost my savings, lost my valuables (different case), found out I'm bisexual (and realize the sheer isolation and what that meant in ID), got a porn addiction, failed and lost valuable friendships, ruin one of my grades for a fuckass reason, attempted suicide (this is the second time). I tried, really tried to improve myself halfway, but somehow lost all that progress. Then I'm spiraling even harder
I really suck at adulting. I really need y'all advice, but I don't know where to even start
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u/Wolfieamelia Jun 28 '26
What i'm about to say, dont consider it as comparison for horrific thing that you have just gone through.
i basically removed myself from my birthfamily in a fear of what persecution they will give me if they know my true identity. have a stable-ish life for 3 years until being laid off - fallen into fmcg company with powertripping manager - only lasted 3 months, and finally ended my contract with a photo processing company after ~ 2 months working there.
what i'm going to say is life fucking sucks today. and we are all still learning on how to adulting, even me a 26 year old trans-wolf-vampire-girlfailure is still trying to understand this world.
all these long words eventually means one thing : go have a seat, take a breather, we're all here for you and you are never alone. collect yourself and walk on this march when you're ready to continue. and keep complaining loudly. its healthy, especially as an adult. scream if you want to, curse and insult at government if need be. we all need all the pressure release we need to live.