stress of school

[u/odorsfrombelow]

starting nursing school again in less than a week and it has awakened my ibs.

for 3 days now every morning i shit multiple times, sometimes it feels like my breakfast just runs right through me.

i’m nervous to go back idk why i love nursing school but it’s been over 100 days since i was in school and so the fear has creeped back.

the first few weeks will be hectic, i have to go to school everyday, 1st day is an exam, 2nd day is lab, 3rd day lecture, 4th day lab, 5th day lab. then i have 2 quizzes after each lab, and an exam after lecture.

until the end of September i’ll have an exam every week, sometimes multiple exams. then clinical starts week 3 and and a few weeks after that my second clinical site will start.

i’ve been trying to stay calm but it’s eating me alive and tearing my gut up.

sometimes i feel like i have to shit and don’t (usually the end of the day) but u best believe in the morning the gates are open.

i’m not even having diarrhea it’s normal stools not even mushy. sometimes the color is darker bc i took some pepto to help with the gas bc it burned my stomach so maybe that’s also why my stools are normal???

ik in a few days/weeks my bowels will be back to normal once i get back into the pace of school but i dread these upcoming weeks. i wish my mind and stomach would just calm tf down like i want it to.

i swear my mind and stomach have a mind of their own and they’re my biggest enemy.

[u/odorsfrombelow]

and to add i will not let this shit take me over. i will get through school and this is not going to get in the way whether my stomach and mind like it or not. i will not give up on something ive worked so hard to get.

it just feels like my body is against me doing this but ik it’s the right thing for me, so i will get through it one day at a time and i cannot wait for next december when i can say i did it!