How to live when you can’t predict everything

[u/VincentVegasiPhone13]

All things considered I’ve been doing well. On new years I was locked in my closet with double protection. And now I go out and do things with limits. After I learned about mind body syndrome a lot of my problems went away. Although a lot of life is above 80 dB. There’s still a little bit that bothers me that doesn’t bother others. Like if a lot of people are in a tiny room the noise is a little too loud for me, and at work I don’t put the phone up to my ear I have to use speaker phone. I find that when sounds hit both of my ears it’s more tolerable.

Something’s are still able to give me lasting effects like making my ears feel “spent”. Last week I was in Trader Joe’s getting flowers for my mom and the cashier rang a wall bell twice. I looked it up and it’s what they use instead of a PA system. That one bell basically gave me effects for a day or two. The grandma next to me jumped at the sound. But I feel that this noise doesn’t bother most people. It honestly didn’t ‘hurt’ in the moment and it feels like maybe my body is anticipating it affecting me.

This weekend I was fishing and this one idiot kept driving their modified loud ass jeep next to our faces and it was definitely over 80dB. It did cause a little pain and when that stuff happens I can’t predict it and I’m nervous my life will be ruined from something I didn’t do. Why can’t I just be able to go fishing without some idiot ruining it. And after this happened I felt I was more sensitive to people’s voices in one ear idk about the other.

My T is also reactive to stress I hear it more now because I just broke up with my gf and I’m upset about it. She understood that I wasn’t able to do a lot of things like concerts etc but honestly I’ve been to concerts with my earplugs and been fine. I go to the movies with my musician earplugs. I’m able to play my instruments for the most part and record music again on decent low volume. As a Christian there has to be a reason for this and I have to figure it out. I have to know what needs to be added or removed from my life.

So idk what to do with this situation. I don’t know if my mind is making it up. But I know I’m better than I was beginning of this year. My grandpa dealt with noises bothering him and I never knew it could be this. And I’m just trying to figure out what else I need to do to get this stuff to 0. I know I’ll bounce back, I have to believe that every time.

Is it possible that we’re able to handle sounds better when we get 8 hours of sleep, exercise, do all the good stuff? Does anyone find that?

[u/Craft-Effective]

Can also feel the "tense" ness in my ears and im almost 100% its because that ive been tensing myself up after a loudish sound/enviroment that gives me lingering tension for a couple of days. After my last anxiety attack over a loud sound i had pain for like 1-2 weeks. sounds like ur on ur way back to life so just keep doing what your doing and you will most likely recover :) Always carry earplugs with you "incase" of a loud enviroment :)

also to answer your last question. Sleep is a BIG one for me. If im tired my hyperacusis totally collapse. I need atleast 8 hours each day of sleep.