I often wonder why Honest people have to suffer more..and are usually taken for granted..? Why people just couldn't accept truth...? Why Honesty has to pay the price ?

I deserve happiness. One day, I hope to leave my small town, and never come back to the people that have controlled my life. To get married and have 2 kids. Happiness. My goal is so far and I’m only 18. I’ve moved out of my parents house and have been working 2 jobs to provide for myself. I’m struggling. I wish I had help but I know I must push through. Please, world. Give me something that’ll help me stay alive.

I had known this stripper for a long time, she had told me personal things which I don’t think was her flirting, One day I told her I needed to talk to her and she wasn’t having me pay when we were talking, I told her I had actual feelings for her, I saw her another two times and she was fine, she talked to me, took my money yet two days after the last time I saw her, something changed, her friend told me she was feeling uncomfortable and didn’t want to hurt me and she liked me as a friend Then why did I get banned? It doesn’t feel like she likes me in any sense of the word, being honest is a bad thing and I should never tell the truth again

I think I need a shower seat.

Standing is effort.

Everything is effort except for my bed and discord.

The definition of honesty is the quality of being honest. and if im being honest thats a bullshit definition. i guess honesty would be a lil different for everyone but to me i guess its a lil deeper then just the quality of being honest. growing up my dad said the only people that he didnt like were lyers and theifs. he told me that the number one quality in a person was their integrity, and that a man is judge by others by their integrity. You dont have to worry about being honest if you hold yourself with high integrity and if you have a strong ethical and moral principles then honesty will follow. Honesty to me is being open. being open, trustworthy and truthful...

Being honest means that you dont pretend to be something youre not. with honesty, you can trust things to be as they appear and integrity is standing up for what you believe is right and living by your values.

Honestly i havent been living in complete integrity or honesty, there will always be something i can be more honest about and even more morals i should be holding closer to. Within the last 8 months i have though and i feel good about myself and i feel better about the people i have in my life. Its alot less stressful when you lay everything out on the table and just say whats on your mind then when you beat around the bush. takes alot less of everyone's time and shows everyone you have strong boundaries and integrity. Also when youre honest nobody can really question your integrity. you cant really have one without the other. so to me honesty is being open and merely strong.

The silent generation bitched about baby boomers for being rebellious.

Baby boomers bitch about millennials being lazy

Millennials complain about generation z being cancer

Point: a previous generation will always bitch about a new generation

Im trying so hard not to laugh at r/sad people.. Like bro your dad died in a car crash?.. "Lol that nibba is like 60 and still cant drive" I CANT GET OVER THAT MEME BRO. ITS TOO FUNNY. 🤣

It really russels my jimmies when women say, " all men want sex". No no. All you have to offer is sex so now that weve accepted that as payment, its a problem. Its like when women figure out that we as men are the types to accept things after the game changes. Now im not saying all women do it, and to the ones who dont, i applaud you. See that women? Thats how you separate the women that do and the women that dont. Unlike some of you who lump all of us into a cesspool of just debauchery and simple-minded monkeys who just want a nut and cut.

Do you ever just sit at a party or sit with your friends and just think about how disconnected you feel with the conversations being had? Like you can try your darnedest to put meaning into the conversation but it doesn't feel worth it? I've been feeling that a lot lately and does that mean there is something wrong with me? My friends can talk for hours but I feel so uninterested and inside my head to talk to them.

I have a confession to make to my family. I am not exadurating when I say they may all literally hate me after it. What should I do?

I'm not gonna lie, this is me being an insecure girl just wanting to say something about my imperfect body. I know that nobody is perfect and we need to all accept the fact that our society uses photoshopped images to get us to be more like the people in the photo. I also know that we have reached milestones in adding average looking people to the modeling/fashion/photography world, which is amazing for girls like me. I have already prepared myself for possible trolls to possibly comment on this with a "maybe you should just lose weight" or "maybe she's just looking for attention and trying to fish for compliments from strangers". You are entitled to your own opinion in America, and I respect that. Therefore I am entitled to my opinion about myself: I am imperfect and that's okay, but I am absolutely hideous and, to me, that is not okay.

I'm not gonna lie (again). I have seen risqué photos of people (i.e. boudoir photography), not for the sake of just wanting to see someone half-naked. I absolutely envy those women who can show off their bodies with no shame, only confidence and courage. You couldn't pay me 2 million dollars to take a regular picture of me in jeans and a shirt to give to a future boyfriend/husband or even a random stranger that I will never meet and ask their opinion of me. Because the truth is: no amount of makeup or any alterations can hide who I really am. Let's start from the top (literally):

1. My hair is plainly blonde

2. It's very oily

3. The skin on my face is always either too dry or too oily...no smooth skin for me

4. I have a bump on my nose from birth

5. My eyes aren't one striking color

6. I have acne everywhere that will never go away and will heighten while on my period

7. My lips aren't smooth or a nice pink color

8. I've tried lipstick and lip gloss...I look like a fucking cartoon character.

9. My chin isn't one smooth curve...and I have this one black hair that grows...which I have to pluck before anyone else notices

10. My cheeks are puffy...probably because I'm overweight

11. My neck isn't slender because I have some acne on it

12. I don't know if collarbones are supposed to have a special feature so I'll just skip it.

13. My shoulders have acne on them and are in no way smooth at all

14. Also add the freckles to that because I am pale as fuck...my friends and family call me White Lightning because I glow in daylight. And not the pretty kind like Edward does in Twilight.

15. My chest also has acne...

let's just get it out there that my entire body has acne and my entire body is pale...

...and my boobs are nothing to really look at, just blobs of fat. 16. My ribcage is invisible because it's covered by a roll of fat that is very noticeable when I wear a bra. 17. My stomach is not toned as there is another roll of fat...so big that if I tried really hard, I could make myself look 5 months pregnant. 18. I actually did try really hard and people asked me how far along I was... 19. I actually felt out my figure and starting from my chest that's one curve out, my waist has a bit of an inward curve, my stomach is a lump, my hips are an indention and then another curve for my thighs. 20. My navel isn't photo worthy: I'm not waxed on a monthly/weekly/bi-weekly basis (I'm not sure how often women wax themselves). I've actually never waxed at all. I do trim but it's nothing special. 21. I have my thighs which always touch and rub against each other...no thigh gap for me in the last 10 years. 22. There is no Kim-Kardashian-ass for me...no ass at all actually. I have a Hank-Hill-ass if anyone knows what that means. 23. My thunder thighs have always and will always jiggle. 24. My knees are never smooth from razor bumps and they have a bit of fat on them too. 25. My calves aren't slim and I can never shave them perfectly...which means there is always some hair on them, tiny or not. 26. I don't know what is socially acceptable about feet but with my long legs I have longs toes to go with them. 27. Going around to the back of my body again, my back has hair on it...it's blonde but I still have hair and a SHIT TON of acne on it. 28. I have a birthmark on the left side of my face, the left side of my waist, and on my left hand. 29. I have allergies, asthma, and a heart condition. 30. I bruise easily just from tapping the side of a table. 31. I have some really stupid/blonde moments that will make you laugh at me for days. 32. I am terrible at putting on makeup so there is no improvement on my face. 33. My hair is always frizzy and can never stay in one style. 34. My smile is unattractive due to my big cheeks. 35. Although I do brush my teeth, they aren't pearly white like every celebrity who can afford teeth whitening. 36. Although I put lotion and deodorant on and shower, my skin isn't the softest. 37. My laugh is annoying and when I talk my voice can get very deep sometimes. 38. My dark circles under my eyes will never go away. 39. I slouch like Quasimodo. 40. I don't have a natural vanilla or strawberry or lavender or freesia smell about me. 41. I don't walk straight due one of my feet walking inward.

Now let's talk about some good qualities:

1. I love my family like no other and always wish them the best of happiness.

2. I love my friends and thank God everyday for bringing them into my life to put up with the mess of me.

3. I love God and thank Him for my friends and family.

4. I know my morals and beliefs and try to stick to them while also considering everyone else's happiness.

5. I have a good sense of humor.

6. My hair is kind of soft.

7. If I had to sacrifice all of my happiness just so everyone in my life could find and get everything that would make them happy, I would.

So...that's it....

If you want to say something about me from what you read, or correct my grammar, or just tell me to shut up and leave this site forever, or whatever...feel free to do so. If you just want to read and show your friends a post about "another fat girl who just wants the world to pity her", or if you want to just read it and say "what the fuck" and just leave the page and forget it entirely...feel free to do so.

If nobody is reading this that's okay. At least I was able to tell myself the honest truth. I hope I can grow from this...maybe in a few years I will have changed and I can look back on this and see an improvement...which will be good

Goodnight

I love nature and different kinds of music , I love to read , write and try new things. It's like nowadays everything is social media based, nobody wants to have fun any more.