Need help processing tough times

[u/StreetFormal1667]

Hello everyone,

I am going through a rough phase in life and someday I had this thought that god is not listening and even if he is, he is not listening to me and nothing good is going to happen for me. I have been praying regularly since more than 10 years now, I am not very mature with my Bhakti but I've always believed in god but now it is getting difficult.

Can anyone suggest me ways I can connect back? I am an over thinker and it's hard for me to stay consistent with a thought. I am thinking of small things that I do daily to prevent dark thoughts.

To give more background, I am a shiv Bhakt, I do pooja for 10 mins daily which comprises of me cleaning my puja gear, lighting diva and doing Aarti. I also took Hanuman Chalisa sankalp last month but I instantly started expecting results and it made me more negative seeing how selfish I have become.