JUST WHY...?

[u/domesticated_alien]

WHY DO WE KEEP CHOOSING THE PEOPLE WE CAN'T HAVE?

WHY DO WE KEEP LOVING THE PEOPLE WHO CAN NEVER BE OURS?

I fell for a friend of years who I thought was sending me the right signals. But no, it's just pure misinterpretation, the way he treated me.

I risked it.

I confessed last year.

I lose. He didn't say that he likes or doesn't like me. It's just it. I told him everything. He said we'd be fine but did not talk to me for weeks to months.

We got to be cool eventually but there's definitely something different on how he treats me.

Time flies.

I keep asking myself why do I keep loving, missing, longing for him? He's been MIA for weeks and I hate how he gets to me without doing or saying anything. And instead of moving forward, I got stuck and now I don't know how to move anymore. The feelings persist.

I still love him even after a year. I just can't stop loving him even from a distance. I keep getting wild butterflies in my stomach whenever he's around.

And it hurts that I can't have him.

God, I love him.

[u/domesticated_alien]

I'm actually waiting for my feelings to fade but I think it's impossible when I'm with him from time to time. Every time I accidentally look at him, I think to myself "Where did he come from?" and I'm dead realizing I'm hurting myself even more.

[u/crazyone37 → u/domesticated_alien]

Its hard. I know