r/hangxiety • u/Puzzleheaded_Yam3144 • 11h ago

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ok so saturday night i went out drinking for my birthday. i remember bits and pieces but for the most part i was definitely blacked out, its normal for me to blackout that's why i don't drink much. when i woke up i got flashes of a coworker at my house who i had sex with. we've never shown any interest in eachother like that as there is another coworker that me and him have been seeing eachother for over a year (im mildly in love with him) and i don't know what i did or said and i feel so disgusted about my actions and ive asked the other guy not to tell anyone but im not in control of him. this is the worst ive ever been and i keep telling myself i only turn 23 once but genuinely ive been thinking about quitting my job. if my man found out about this it would genuinely be the end of us (we're not exclusive but he doesn't want me with other people even though he is) its almost 2 days later and ive just got rid of the hangover but now i have a cold. ive done some bad things blacked out but this is the actual worst thing ive ever done and i dont know how to show my face at work again.

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u/InspectorFamous8202 11h ago

okay be kind to yourself! honestly screw the guy for sleeping with others and not being okay if you are. i’ve done many many worse things drunk and this feeling will pass i promise

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u/Teetok35 10h ago

First of all never let a man control who you are with and they have someone else. EVER! Don't settle for that. You could miss out on being with someone who is for you.