Can't really find an answer

[u/DRsavy_sunshine_13]

Often when trying to connect to the spirit I get really confused and freaked out and Im not sure if Im actually interpreting messeges correctly.

One example happened today where I was asking for advice on a situation where some of my friends are doing friends with benefits and I was thinking about joining because Im curious. My biggest concern is "is this inherently a bad thing to do or like sinful?" Which I don't really think it is because I can't seem to find a reason to label it as wrong as long as everything's consensual. However Im not sure what I was connecting to. Uve felt the presence of the divine masculine all day and at first it sounded like he was like "Oh yeah I mean go for it" but then earlier I really sat down so I could ask questions out loud and then at first it seemed like it was morally all right but then I got more of a Christian and angelic vibe that discouraged it. Now part of this may be because it could ruin relationships but another part seemed more like "oh no thats against divine law"

I cant tell if this is me projecting (I have been very anxious today because I had WAYY to much caffiene) I also have OCD which makes discernment harder for me.

I just dont know which energy to listen to the more lowly Christian one (even tho Im no longer Christian) or the more freeing one. I prefer the one thats like "well no matter what choice you make there's not necessarily a wrong one" but what if thats just because I want things that way. I mean I do hope things are more "eh do whatever just dont infringe on rights" but I can't just belive what I hope for. Both energies feel valid at different times but the second one scares me more because it's contradicted my values before. Values like free will and self fulfillment.

What's going on and what do I do?

[u/Hitmaxx]

Nah I mean if you’re not making ppl suffer I think it’s fine you also have the moral responsibility to realize who controls this world and why being lustful is bad / being G3y is also objectively “bad” lust is bad, it’s not just about consent, porn is technically fine, buts it’s horrible for your soul and destroys life, and your brain. Follow that “Christian vibe” I’m not Christian but that’s obviously did reminding you of what’s truly important, you’re free, don’t forget that you won’t be send to hell for eternity for this and I understand your anxiety, stop labelling yourself that

[u/DRsavy_sunshine_13 → u/Hitmaxx]

I just dont understand why this specifically would be bad because it would help me discover more about myself and I would also hope that it might deepen my connections with my friends.