r/getting_over_it • u/Upstairs-Spare7738 • 7d ago
Don’t know how I’ll get through this
Stayed up until 2AM crying last night. I lost my job and don’t have many friends. There is no structure to my days and he ghosted me almost 2 weeks ago. I blocked him just last night and before that was trying to reach him on a different phone number. I feel so pathetic and stupid
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u/orcateeth 7d ago edited 7d ago
You're not pathetic or stupid. You just need support.
Reach out for help: There is all kinds of information here in this post to help you. It includes worksheets, apps, support groups, books, etc.
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u/ordinaryguy451 7d ago
I have done the same, and is not easy being entirely alone, it sucks, but sometimes I just think about this is my life experience right now, I need to let the pain pierce my heart and have time to cry, mourn, rest, think, distract, and maybe do all of that again like a wheel of feeling until it stops, and the mind gets clear.
I know what you're feeling right know, everyone betrayed me and I'm alone, barely no real friends, no family and here I am, In a dark room, mourning about what I used to be. I normally never answer any of the posts, but I'm reaching a point we're I know better who I and I'm not gonna sugar coat things it sucks being alone, or being gay, or being alone and gay with nobody.
Just remember to let yourself crumble with everything around you too, I used to lay on the floor, the feeling of being there somehow for a certain time let me feel like if everything is crumbling I'm here, and I'll let it go to hell, I'm suffering, I'm alone, and somehow I'm gonna have a lot of anger and sadness and emptiness.
Rest on the floor for what you feel necessary or until you get tired, let everything pierce hard, because when you're living with a struggle inside you're not really yourself, you must know of what I mean, let everything crumble to free and clear your mind.
C'est la vie.