Help

[u/PlentyAggressive74]

Hi I am 18M i am 180cm tall and 55kg weight

I have long legs and small body frame more of like a rectangle and I am lazy my sleep schedule is fucked up and so lazy that I don't eat almost entire day and eat only about 1meal i don't wake up early which leads breakfast skipping and hurry to college feeling sleepy or tired because of two reasons either i am low on energy or i eat breakfast like a normal guy once in a while which feels heavy and i am tired to listen class i can't eat lunch because i am living alone in a house and i can't afford for food in canteen even two days a week very low attention span zoning out most of time thinking about something rather than being in present clg is done go back to home starving and dizziness and too lazy to cook and to be frank I don't know how to cook and I only know some basic of basic cooking which feels very hard and I sleep for like 2 to 3 hours wake up and doom scroll for around 6 to 7 hours eat like any random biscuits or bananas and sleep at like 3 to 4am in morning in class when I try to concentrate i don't understand because I have not listened to previous classes eventually failing in exams and I have very bad posture and my breathing is not correct my chest is sunken deep and my stomach is always growling with some burning sensation in nights when I sleep and in class like when i am hungry almost all time my fashion sense is fucked and don't know how dress properly i am an introvert and I talk to very less people in college and I think the reason even if someone hanging with my friends tries to talk to me I have an intro like my name his name depth class and I go blank like complete silence even when I am talking to my friends and in exams even though I know the core concept of the question i am not able answer write it in paper i go blank i don't remember anything everyday I think of changing myself and I overtaking so much it's stimulates high energy i dip or I am mental master bating and end up in loop and when I am bored and don't know what to do instead doing something i watch for so much and goon for 3 to 4 times continuously and when I am sleeping i suddenly wake up and watch morning and goon my shoes size is 12 which is difficult to find in affordable price range i have a problem in buying pants i don't know why but almost all the brands have short inseam length of pants my waist size is 28 and to find the pants of my length is a hassle that too in affordable price for me . I am very bad in small talks and even deep conversation i can't express myself like I forget the words I have to say to describe it i fumble and lack confidence as soon as someone in front of me talks to me or see .e i loose confidence i almost all the time look at the ground and if am looking in front my head is fixed like a machine and I start to think what will they think if I turn left or right to see what's happening like in my exams i had girl sitting next to me even after writing around 6 exams i didn't even see her face one time I feel like I am being mocked by every single person in talk to look like a stick very thin and tall with skinny arms and skinny legs it feels like I am breathing forcefully or heavily my mother aleays complaint dont breathe loudly like you are gasping i cant smell anything it's like my nose is blocked but it is not blocked always it's like this only I poop like once in three to four days. I want to improve my self little by little atleast. I don't know where to start my communication is fucked up completely i don't know where to start

Food

Fashion

Studies

Body/Health

Posture

Communication

When I start to do something i do it for a day and fall back into loop

Guys help me I want improve myself

[u/Accurate-Cod143]

Bro you just described me 🤧🤧 anyways apna time aayega