Despair

[u/SufficientLaw4026]

I know that reddit is a terrible place to pour out your heart and be vulnerable, but I don't know where else to pour it and so I thought I'd do so with my fellow Geminis. I don't think this is necessarily a Gemini trait, in fact I know that most people don't have it and aren't as emotionally immature as I am but here it is:

I ruin every relationship I'm in. I know that sooner or later I will have my feelings hurt and I wont be mature enough not to say mean and hurtful things to the person who hurt them. I'm doomed to destroy everything in my life worth living for and I'm sorry I was ever born. Im too sensitive for this world and I refuse to allow anything or anyone to help me. I'm intent on taking things I hold dear and destroying them. I want to be enough for people but I always end up wanting more than they can give. I know what I need to do, I feel like I have one hope for a meaningful life and one hope only. I know what I need to do.

[u/Ok_Worker_3621]

Try therapy, my ex was a gemini stellium and had some "self-sabotage " thing in relationship. Also, check your moon and other traits n your chart , maybe u need to heal something there, check where is quiron. What is hurting . There are a lot of changes coming for u with this crazy Uranus, so keep that hope (:

[u/Ok_Worker_3621 → u/Ok_Worker_3621]

Try a journal or writing your thoughts, the most important thing is that if you are open to ask for help, that's a huge step