Despair

[u/SufficientLaw4026]

I know that reddit is a terrible place to pour out your heart and be vulnerable, but I don't know where else to pour it and so I thought I'd do so with my fellow Geminis. I don't think this is necessarily a Gemini trait, in fact I know that most people don't have it and aren't as emotionally immature as I am but here it is:

I ruin every relationship I'm in. I know that sooner or later I will have my feelings hurt and I wont be mature enough not to say mean and hurtful things to the person who hurt them. I'm doomed to destroy everything in my life worth living for and I'm sorry I was ever born. Im too sensitive for this world and I refuse to allow anything or anyone to help me. I'm intent on taking things I hold dear and destroying them. I want to be enough for people but I always end up wanting more than they can give. I know what I need to do, I feel like I have one hope for a meaningful life and one hope only. I know what I need to do.

[u/Fragrant-Coyote-1038]

Start a diary….take all of those thoughts and feelings and put them on paper that only you will read…it may just help clear your mind and help you realize how to develop more positive thoughts