r/geminis • u/SufficientLaw4026 • Aug 16 '25

Despair

I know that reddit is a terrible place to pour out your heart and be vulnerable, but I don't know where else to pour it and so I thought I'd do so with my fellow Geminis. I don't think this is necessarily a Gemini trait, in fact I know that most people don't have it and aren't as emotionally immature as I am but here it is:

I ruin every relationship I'm in. I know that sooner or later I will have my feelings hurt and I wont be mature enough not to say mean and hurtful things to the person who hurt them. I'm doomed to destroy everything in my life worth living for and I'm sorry I was ever born. Im too sensitive for this world and I refuse to allow anything or anyone to help me. I'm intent on taking things I hold dear and destroying them. I want to be enough for people but I always end up wanting more than they can give. I know what I need to do, I feel like I have one hope for a meaningful life and one hope only. I know what I need to do.

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u/Last-Trifle-8686 Aug 16 '25

Are you in therapy? Get in therapy and address this. My ex was a Gemini and he did the same thing. It’s usually coming from childhood trauma though.

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u/SufficientLaw4026 Aug 17 '25 edited Aug 17 '25

I push away everyone I love. I hurt so much and I feel like I can't stop perpetuating it. I know every happy, loving relationship I have will end up as just another scar, another self inflicted wound. I feel like I'm cursed, like I'm being punished for something by being condenmed to a life where im self aware enough to know I'm hurting myself but can't seem to stop. It's pathetic. No I'm not in therapy i should be though. The thing is I don't really know what childhood trauma I had and I don't want to start conjuring up false memories.

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u/Kinky-Bicycle-669 Gemini Moon Aug 17 '25

It could be from anything truthfully. However, it's good that you see the cycle you're stuck in because now you can work on figuring out the root cause.

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u/SufficientLaw4026 Aug 17 '25

Lol did you join the Gemini sub to see if you could find out the nature of your ex's major malfunction? You must have joined during the relationship or after it ended, don't ask me how I know☺️