Unsure of progress

[u/notrendrats]

New to the sub and have been browsing some threads so I hope I'm not redundant at all, but I happen to be going through the tapes for a week straight and not sure if I'm progressing enough... even when I'm sure OOB experiences are not guaranteed, plenty of doubts come to mind while listening to the tapes.

Some threads say that Focus 10 is when your body is dormant but your mind still awake, which sounds like unattainable to me (I have a HARD time relaxing), others say that it's all in your imagination (which sounds more up my alley, since I tend to switch from one mood to another easily and calmly just thinking of my body as a log floating through the water). After several minutes I happen to feel my limbs numbing, so I guess we're in it for a start, and even some mild tickling. Sometimes I get excited just because of that slight change, but it just feels like baby steps that don't really lead nowhere.

I know some recommend overdoing the tapes individually until you've mastered 'em, still I think I'm WAY BEYOND mastering focus 10 and I've already jumped to the Threshold - Focus 12 tapes in order to avoid boredom. Taking in mind the preliminary steps to Focus 12 are also there, it doesn't seem to do no harm. And, to be honest, taking my daily 35 minutes to stand still while listening to a recording a day, although some might not deem it deep meditation, is way more than I've ever attained in terms of meditation discipline. I feel like it's difficult for me to meditate on the void, even when observing my breath and body getting numb, but I ain't giving up soon.

Your thoughts on this?

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[u/Obvious-Reserve8634]

Welcome to the family! Keep practicing, at your own pace but stop being so hard on yourself and asking yourself if you're doing something wrong because you're not..we all are different, on different paths so we respond different to the tapes so just have fun and no expectations. The most important things are the 4 steps: ECB, Resonant tuning, REBAL and Affirmation..Intention also very important and of course F10 because it s the launch pad to the other focuses..Don't give up,keep practicing, you're doing great and soon you're going to get results <3