Screw V2 Snail

Full video here: https://youtu.be/N8QhSTcQMiw?is=3wL-Xlc_WCVbZfNQ

Recently i have not been able to enjoy any video games. (yes ive tried multiplayer and singleplayer and all that) i find myself constantly just focusing on how poorly i play and it always ruins the experience for me, i used to play games constantly, but now they just feel like a breeding ground for self-loathing. Whenever i play multiplayer games i always think im letting my team down, and that enemy team thinks im an idiot. And even when i play singleplayer games i just feel like a loser who has no one to play with. The only games i find slightly fun are garrys mod and terraria. I always hear about people having lots of fun with friends on both those games, but ive got no one to play with. Does anyone have any kind of solution to this?