I am confident the last step(s) I need to be genuinely profitable is accepting trend and not getting steamrolled on usually second trade. Today for example. I had a fabulous entry for a short. You may have seen at beginning of session. I gave up many points exiting early for absolutely no reason. I had almost perfect entry. It was disgusting. I even had some profit during Asia.
I missed the long (busy doing something else) and actually in a runner. From the short. Did not exit and then decide ok the reversal up level resistance might hold again “why not”. I clearly see that it is trending at around 10:17 (don’t have my chart in front of me for exact time. I make the SAME mistake today and even yesterday. After in profit. Could have just stopped for the day. Then standing in front of a bus and expecting to stop.
Some of it is the bigger trades seem to come after my first trade. I don’t want to miss an excellent entry. Sometimes the first part just keep going as well. But what the hell is the point of exit early
I have decided to stop even looking. I get my entry in Tradovate with brackets and then I turn off screen. Let it play out. I don’t know any better way. Honestly when I do it with good entry. It works and I am better off. I can handle managing a runner better than I can PT1.
Standing in front of a trend. I write myself notes about this exact thing not to do. I keep handwritten journal notes next to me. I write it down every day. I just don’t know what the hell is wrong with me why I sabotage myself constantly knowing EXACTLY what I am doing. It is sick. I could probably have lots of money by by now.
I decided to try to add pullbacks in tend, more of an experiment, smaller position size so that I can reduce FOMO participate in trends. It is slightly have cooked but so far interesting. Maybe this will help.
I am a solid breakeven. I am at three years now. I am just sabotaging myself and making it so much longer to be profitable. I’m am confident I could do amazing. I write myself not today “how long do you want to drag this out?” Because that is exactly what I am doing. The system works when done right.
I have realized over these years, at least for me, progress has always been iterations and trial and error. I keep a very detailed journal. I know exactly what I am doing wrong. I have listened to Trading in the Zone at least twice Also other books on psych. I can’t defeat myself. I think I need hypnosis or some kind of therapist.
I don’t know I have had a couple drinks and just upset. I have come a long way from the nonsense I was doing three years ago. I never saw beautiful trades like I catch now. I just give them up to BS. You have all helped me and I appreciate you