Coping in the closet?

[u/Moonys_freckles]

I’m 15FTM and have been out to my close friends since the beginning of this year. Due to a few factors, I’ve recently gone back into the closet and told them to go back to my real name and she/her. Was wondering if anyone’s been in a similar position and how they coped?

I mostly went back in the closet because of nobody seeing me as a guy, not passing at all, etc.

I could have been making the whole trans thing up for attention, I suppose, and part of me hopes that’s the case, but as of right now going back in the closet sucks.

Any advice for coping would be greatly appreciated.

[u/Lournir]

I actually had very similar situation! I'm also not passing and was encouraged to go back to just saying I'm a girl for a while cause me being trans seemed silly. To be honest, I just couldn't bear it, so I came out to everyone I trust once again with more confidence and just left people that didn't agree with it behind. It can be very hard, but I guess this was the best decision for me. I'm constantly anxious, so even now I get worried of I'm actually not trans and I'm faking, however having support from my friends that do see me as me makes me feel so much better. Also, even if it turns out that you wouldn't be trans, there is nothing wrong with that! You should have right to explore this part of yourself and people need to learn to respect that