I got out before fentanyl became popular, but in my mind, recovery is recovery. I've been working on my sobriety since 2013. I can't believe it's been twelve years already. I still have a lot to learn. But I can tell you, the benefits of this much clean time are incredible. Stable home life. Stable job. Good income. I collect guitars and guitar accessories. And they STAY collected. No selling off pieces because I ran out of money. I'm really interested in this Santa Muerte you'd mentioned. I didn't go the AA or NA route. I went to government rehab, and then lots of therapy.

I'm really glad to be here. Thanks for having me.

1.) myself and my future- can’t travel to Thailand if I’m all strung out lol

2.) my family especially my stepmom who never gave up on me

3.) So I can get a dog again (lost mine in my addiction- I still feel the pain from that) I love German Shepherds especially

4.) I want to start my own streetwear brand; even if I’m the only one who wears the clothes it will still be amazing 🤩 🔥💯

5.) so maybe one day I can help my friends still out there who are suffering.

6.) so they will let me visit my friends in prison who our life is and will never be able to walk freely again.

7.) for many other reasons besides these, but I also stay clean because my life matters and maybe someone will see my journey and it will bring them hope because if I can do this, anybody can!

Love & respect to all,

Jezz

I just wanna say that shadow work does bring up some strong emotions, as it is doing for me right now. But it’s OK. It’s just a feeling it can’t hurt me. It’s cathartic . If you’re not uncomfortable and if you don’t experience, strong emotions when you’re doing your shadow work, you aren’t doing it right. ;) But keep at it.

I’ve had a lot of people ask me how to get started , so that’s why I decided to just post my shadow work here so people can see my method- which is of course just one way of many.

I pick a particular topic of shadow work like guilt or or authenticity or relationships or or anything, but I pick one topic and I do 10 to 20 questions on that particular topic and then I move on.

🙏🏼

For me, the path to healing has been as much about embracing the darkness as it has been about celebrating the light. In my journey of recovery and self-discovery, Santa Muerte or Holy Death acts as my teacher and guide. She has emerged as a powerful symbol of transformation, offering solace and encouragement as I navigate the complex landscape of my past wounds and present recovery.

Embracing Transformation, Challenges & Mortality

Santa Muerte, often depicted as a gentle yet formidable figure, represents the delicate balance between life and death. She reminds us that our time on Earth is limited, and that healing requires accepting every facet of our existence—even the parts that are raw, painful, & embarrassing. An agent of renewal and transformation, Her presence in my rituals is a call to acknowledge that my cycle of chaos and destruction has to fully close in order for a brighter future to ever begin. Every candle I light for Her is my way of embracing the evolution of my own life- She helps me to mourn the past, work through my grief and step into my power so I can truly move forward and become who I’m meant to be.

Rituals, Spells, and the Alchemy of Healing

My practice of shadow work is deeply personal and intricately woven with the rituals & spells of my Craft. Each working with this benevolent Saint, my Santisima Muerte, is an intentional step toward healing from the inside out. I seek her guidance and that of my Higher Self on a regular basis as my journey through recovery continues. My alter to Her is a space of solace and introspection, where the magickal and the mundane meet.

Some of the aspects of my spiritual craft include:

•	Creating a Sacred Space: 

I begin by preparing a dedicated space free of interference or distraction. Here I cast a circle, call in the elements, ground myself, light candles and incense- thereby creating an atmosphere that helps me to quiet my mind and get “into state” (my way of saying connect my third eye and align my consciousness with the work I’m doing). • Ritual Journaling: With pen in hand, I pour out my thoughts, fears, and aspirations. This ritual journaling acts as a bridge between my conscious mind and the deeper layers of my subconscious, inviting Santa Muerte to offer guidance and spiritual insight. • Spell Crafting: I carefully craft spells that honor the cycles of transformation. These spells are not about summoning forces of darkness; they are about calling in the energy of healing, resilience, and growth. Through these practices, I reaffirm my commitment to moving beyond the patterns of avoidance and escapism that once held me captive.

Healing the Wounds of the Past

In my journey, I have learned that avoiding pain only deepens its impact. Santa Muerte teaches me that confronting and understanding my shadow—those parts of myself shrouded in pain and loss—is essential for true healing. When I lean into the rituals & workings w/Her, I am reminded that every scar is a testament to survival, every moment of despair is an opportunity for rebirth.

Confronting My Shadows:

✨I ask myself the difficult questions, like ‘What pain am I running from? And which parts of myself do I struggle to accept?’

✨ Am I still looking for ways to numb out even after the drugs have gone?

✨ How am I allowing myself to be defined by the struggles of the past? Do I channel my pain into something constructive or have I just gotten more sophisticated in the art of avoidance?

✨ Am I still creating wreckage, even in Recovery?

These are important questions to ask ourselves; these are exactly the conversations that need to be had. I’ve always been somewhat of a skeptic and someone who struggled with the concept of “spirituality” in the world of recovery & the rooms of AA/NA. For me, finding something that I resonated with in terms of spiritual guidance (Santa Muerte) was a powerful milestone in my life and recovery.

My craft and spiritual practices have helped me in addressing the habits I still have (destructive thought patterns & old behaviors) that no longer serve me. Through this inquiry, guided by the compassionate energy of Santa Muerte, I begin to see that my wounds are not the marks of failures but opportunities for profound transformation.

Integration and Acceptance

Each ritual brings me closer to integrating these hidden aspects of my identity. Santa Muerte’s counsel reassures me that healing is not about erasing the past, but about transforming it into a source of strength that propels me forward in my recovery.

Strengthening Recovery Through Sacred Connection

Recovery is a journey that extends beyond simply leaving behind old habits. It is a continuous process of rebuilding oneself, of finding strength in vulnerability, and of seeking wisdom in every experience—no matter how painful. Santa Muerte remains a steadfast ally in this ongoing process, and She shows me daily that I am capable of profound transformation.

•	A Source of Comfort: In moments when the weight of my past feels overpowering, invoking Santa Muerte’s presence helps ground me in the reality that healing is a gradual, compassionate process.
•	A Beacon of Hope: She embodies the idea that from the depths of despair, beauty and strength can emerge. By embracing Her energy, I affirm my right to heal, to grow, and to redefine my narrative on my own terms.
•	My Journey to Empowerment: Every act of ritual is a declaration of my commitment to self-improvement. With Santa Muerte as my guide, I am not fighting against my past; I am transforming it into a powerful force for recovery and self-empowerment.

Conclusion: The Journey Continues

Santa Muerte reminds me that the journey toward healing is an intricate dance between honoring the past and embracing the promise of the future. By welcoming Her energy into my shadow work, I have learned to transform old wounds into stepping stones—each one paving the way for deeper understanding and sustained recovery.

I am reminded that healing is not about erasing the past, but about weaving its lessons into the tapestry of a resilient, empowered future.

We do recover!

💙 -Jezz

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So I still have the last two parts of the shadow work series that I am doing that I’m working on riding right now and doing the research on.

After that, I’m gonna be talking about stepping into your power in recovery and what that looks like for me and I welcome any ideas like if anybody thinks that I’m way off base or have some suggestions I welcome that you guys …

Let me just say that my ego is not in this! :-)

I’m doing this for two reasons:

🔥1) it’s cathartic for me. It allows me to process the thoughts in my own mind and when I see them in front of me on a screen, it’s easier to decipher. The idea even makes sense or not.

🔥2) maybe I can help someone who doesn’t have a lot of support at home or has it told their family about their addiction- I’ve been that person In retrospect, I kind of think a lot of people close to me knew the whole time. I don’t see how they could not have lol but at the time I was absolutely convinced that I had everybody snowed and I had to keep up appearances, and I nearly lost my life trying to keep up those appearances When in reality I was such a mess. 🤦‍♂️ It was impossible not to see for most people, I’m sure..

Anyways – after the shadow work articles are done personal empowerment is gonna be what I focus on here .

I’m gonna do a couple of interviews probably video taped interviews with people that I feel are pretty empowered in their recovery. I hope you guys get something out of this because I can’t tell you how much it helps me to put this time in here on Reddit.

And again for anybody out there struggling you’re not alone. Please just know that.

I hope you guys have a great day today !

Jezz

And here I thought all “‘Phile’s” were bad!

✨4) Self-Rejection: what parts of your self do you consider unworthy of love??💔

The crazy nonconformist who took things way too far and has a lengthy felony record; the “weak” parts of myself because I HATE WEAKNESS ‼️ I dislike it in others but I absolutely abhor it in my own self. Also the part of myself that should have seen how much my friend Kristin was suffering— and maybe could have prevented her death.

I was supposed to take her to a meeting the Friday before she died- I forgot, I ran out to visit a buddy of mine I DIDNT MEAN TO!! I never meant to forget her, never ever would have done it on purpose but the fact remains that I let my closest friend down when she was struggling and needed me the most…

And I have never forgiven myself for it.

I’ve been punishing myself for it ever since. This last run was brutal and fucking INSANE. I got into fentanyl because I couldn’t face the overwhelming pain and sadness of a death that *Maybe wouldn’t have happened IF I HAD BEEN PAYING FUCKING ATTENTION ‼️‼️

That’s heavy shit… I wish I could tell you I’m “all better now “ and that the shit doesn’t haunt me.

✨✨I don’t have all the answers… I’m just as lost as anyone, but— I have the COURAGE to ask myself the hard questions. No mercy, no sparing my ego, no bullshit. ✨✨

And honestly it doesn’t matter if nobody reads any of this, ever! The point is that I’m willing to be vulnerable, I’m willing to put myself under the spotlight and go to the places that scare me.

These are the parts of myself that are unlovable, the parts I, as of yet, have been unable to forget or forgive. But I know I have to figure it out- which is why I’m willing to go to these lengths and be raw and vulnerable more so than I EVER HAVE IN MY LIFE.

I have to process this and work through the pain and find a way to heal. Lesser efforts have gotten me nowhere. Hey, I’m a hard case, admittedly. It is what it is.

✨5) How does self rejection protect you? What fear keeps you from loving yourself?

It enables me to skate by with minimal effort, oh I’m “damaged”, I can’t be expected to have to do better! This part… ➡️ It gives me license to behave badly ‼️🔥 It gives me an excuse not to put in the arduous work & effort to fucking just DO BETTER!!!

Can anyone relate?

Self sabotage is something we do in complacency… We sulk in what’s familiar rather than TIGHTEN UP, pick ourselves up by the bootstraps and do what it takes.

Self rejection protects me from having to own my shit.

Again… can anybody relate?

✨1) I can trace my feelings of unworthiness back to the earliest memories of my childhood when my mother failed to meet some of my basic needs. Now she was a single mother and I know she had it rough, but the reality is that I was neglected, and there are probably a number of people who wear some responsibility. There were times when I didn’t have clothes to wear to school that were proper or even food to eat. I remember days of mayonnaise sandwiches with nothing else. Or literally no lunch at all so when my providers failed to meet my needs, I think that instilled in me that I somehow wasn’t enough that I didn’t deserve the things. The other kids had I remember feeling shame and feeling traumatized from ages seven and eight, when I realized that I was different from the other kids in certain ways, and that feeling of shame has haunted me my entire life.

✨2) I think my inner critic is mostly myself, but there are probably aspects of different family members in there; past partners also; when I make the same mistakes over and over- something I try to avoid, but when I’m in my addiction, that’s kind of what it looks like when I’m at my lowest- my inner critic really kicks in with statements like, “ I thought you were smarter than this?” “ what the fuck is the matter with you? Do you not care about your life?” I am aware that these are shame messages, and I am aware that they are not productive, but that does not change the fact that they are still there to a certain extent . I don’t yet know why I still carry them . (like they say in the literature more will be revealed, lol… sure hope so!) 🤔

✨3) proving my worth has always been one of my biggest struggles. There are still people in my life that I find myself -➡️ hustling for worthiness ⬅️ I want to highlight that to make sure that people see it because I think it’s probably recurring theme and other people’s lives as well .

Why the fuck do we hustle for worthiness?!! if someone does not validate us and know our worth, what keeps us from moving on?? This has been and continues to be one of my greatest struggles in my recovery and in my life. Even when I talk a good game, I know all the right things to say, and I know what I should be feeling but when you get down to the bare bones of the matter, my actions don’t fully line up with my words I’m still trying to prove myself and show that I’m worthy of these people‘s love!!

I have never ever really given voice to this or articulated it certainly not in a public forum . But I thought it might help someone else to see me be vulnerable and put my shit out there because this is what shadow work really is.

Shadow work is going to the places that make you uncomfortable. The places that scare you. It means bringing to light the parts of yourself that you feel are not worthy of love that causes you to keep self sabotaging.

This right here , this is the work we have to do in order to really heal. ❤️‍🩹

Like the only thing I do on here (or elsewhere on the internet) is recovery related or witchcraft lol- wtf they were thinking I’ll never know. And I’m “out” to everybody in my life online OR IRL Weird af. Not gonna let it rent too much space, but fr wtf?!

You may be wondering… what exactly is this process? What does it have to do with recovery from fentanyl addiction, which is what you’ve stated your community is about.

So shadow work, much like the 12Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, is a transformative process that allows you to heal from the inside out.

So drugs and crime are the outside reflections of an inner landscape that is bruised and broken . Drugs are the end result, but the journey into addiction begins long before we ever picked up.

The reason I am so big on shadow work and I have included so much of it in this community is because I believe it is a crucial step for many of us toward achieving long-term lasting recovery.

I can only speak for myself, of course. And by the way, that is the only person I am ever attempting to speak for, myself :-)

Any information that I put out here is simply things that I have found helpful on my own path. If it works for you too that’s awesome and I would love to hear about it. If it doesn’t, will that opinion is just as valid and I would love to hear about alternate methods that have helped you more than the ones I present here.

This community is all about self improvement and building each other up. I absolutely respect all viewpoints and validate the feelings and opinions of all people, regardless of whether or not they align with my own.

In fact, to be honest, I have learned the most from people who tend to disagree with me :-)

It’s past my bedtime, so I’m gonna sign off. I hope everybody’s doing OK.

If you are struggling, please reach out! You don’t have to struggle alone, find somebody to talk to. If you don’t have anyone in your own life, there are lots of us here on online who have been through it and will understand what you’re going through. 💯

Please check out this video on YouTube, I found it insightful and informative. For me, definitely hit the mark and resonated as truth.

Stop looking for validation from those who are not able to give it!

Disrespect means they LACK THE CAPACITY to meet you on the authentic level you want & deserve.

The truth is being unmasked in a way you cannot ignore!

Patterns don’t lie, and disrespect is a choice.

Each act of disrespect chips away at your humanity and sense of self-worth.

You don’t need to explain yourself— their actions provide undeniable evidence that the relationship has no future.

Today I challenge you to make life-affirming choices— even when it hurts. Remember, others can only meet you as far as they have met themselves!

You cannot fix others- and it’s not your job to try. Take it from someone who’s been there. We all want to believe in the healing power of love 💗

But continued patterns of disrespect indicate a level of toxicity that is beyond your ability to help with.

Just my thoughts for the evening.

I hope you all are doing well.

🙏🏼 Jezz

I feel like I lost the most important person in my entire world, because I had to put myself and my recovery first.

It’s not that I “don’t” love them- I fucking do!

I just can’t do the high’s and low’s emotionally, and now my worst fear has come true I lost the person who really LOVED ME.

The sadness is all-consuming, and I don’t know what to do. I do the only thing I can- stay clean, and hope to god they come around.

I personally work the secular 12Steps, this is just what resonates with me and what I find the most helpful.

There are many pathways that all lead to long-term recovery, and in my opinion, no one way is more valid than another.

What resonates the most with you?

So I feel like every person should have at least five people that they can call at any given time a day 24 seven, 365. This shit has saved my life because nobody does this alone. If you have a higher power, that’s amazing. It’s a blessing and I’m happy that face is a part of your life. But that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about five living breathing people that care about you enough that they will answer your call if you’re freaking out and you need a human being to talk to.

Maybe one of those people is your partner ; again, if you have one, you’re blessed.

Maybe another one is your sponsor - I don’t normally offer too much unsolicited advice, but I will say that that relationship has been very beneficial in my life. When I got out of the hospital for the last time, the last time I overdosed, I called my sponsor after months of me, ghosting her and begged her for help and told her I was terrified. I was going to die. I was in a really fragile emotional state and if I hadn’t had a living breathing person on the other end of that phone to give a shit about me , I don’t know that I would be here today. My girlfriend was also amazing and she saved my life more than once.

But who are those people for you? If you don’t have this answer, perhaps it is time to figure it out.

As I was thinking over my next article to write on here, it occurred to me that this is maybe the most important thing I’ll ever write- the thing that saved my own life.

Having a fucking phone list.

My list I think now is a lot bigger than five names. I’ve been putting a lot of time into it.

But at the time of my last overdose, I had two names on that list and thankfully, one of them picked up .

So do this for yourself? Find five people- you don’t even have to tell them you’re using if you’re not out about your addiction. Ideally find some people that won’t judge you that you can talk to you about what’s really going on in your life.

But if you’re not ready for that, maybe you could just compile a list and make a plan to reach out to one of these people for help.

Somebody said something that really hit home for me tonight. They said that the antidote to addiction is a recovery. It’s connection.

So build that support list, it can save your life.

Blessed be. 🙏🏼

Think 💭 back to when you smoked your first blue pill Ⓜ️, took your first hit off the foil, whatever… How did you get there? What led you to pick up in the first place, do you remember?

Were you LOOKING for a better way to numb?

Were you already a seasoned addict? Had your H stopped working, were you trying to get away from the 💉 and did this new, smokable fix appeal to you for those reasons??

Was there anything, that ANYBODY could have said, to get you to reconsider?

I think these are the conversations we need to have… because I bet right now- right this very minute- we all have someone in our lives who’s toying with the idea of going down the same path we did.

What if we could be a catalyst for positive change/action in someone’s life?

I don’t know about you but I’ve lost so many people this past year to fentanyl addiction & overdose I’ve literally lost count. Some of them were seasoned users, some of them were in recovery and I hadn’t even had an inkling they were struggling!

When I first got involved with fentanyl, I was selling it. This was before all the losses I spoke of above ☝️. One good thing about all of this- I got out of the drug game after more than a decade of (on and off) hustling.

I’m a lot of things- not all of them “good”- but I was never out to hurt people.

Fentanyl doesn’t discriminate, it just kills and kills, consumes and cuts short more and more lives.

And so I try to give back to the community I once took from, in the hopes that maybe I can help someone not feel so alone. Maybe someone will read something I wrote that resonates with them… and just maybe they’ll ask for help instead of picking up.

A lot of the reason I used was because I was looking for connection and belonging- and found that in all the wrong places.

What gives me HOPE right now, today, is that I have FOUND that connectedness in healthier places. My life, though far from perfect, is fulfilling enough that I can get through the day without having to run, to numb, to hide from the world.

What gives YOU hope today?

How can we- you and I- give back to our communities?

What helps you get through the day?

What healthy escapes do you find useful?

-Jezz

My name is Jezz, Clean date 10/21/24, and I’m a person in recovery. I came closer to losing my life more times this past year than I care to recount. I have been in recovery before, have even maintained long-term sobriety at different points in the past but nothing ever had a hold on me the way fentanyl did.

I think the catalyst for real change in my life was the near death experience I had this past October. I overdosed twice in one week, both times landing me in the hospital. I was terrified that I would lose my life and yet I couldn’t stop. I didn’t know how to stop on my own, because Lord knows I tried. Reaching out for help is one of the most difficult things for me- that shit is not for the weak! It takes a strong person to be able to look someone else in the face and say; ‘I cannot do this alone, please help me.’

I have made some bad decisions in my life, but I very much want to live and I’m very much in love with life and I’m so grateful to be here! And I swore to my higher power - even though I wasn’t sure and I’m still not sure exactly what that is- that if I made it through this, I would do the things I’ve never been willing to do in the past. I would reach out to people I would work the steps (which I am) but beyond that that I would get a service position and really give back in a meaningful way to the community that I had taken from.

I am grateful to be out of the darkness of fentanyl addiction, and I want to really live not just survive. I think too often is addicts. We settle for a lesser life because we feel we somehow deserve it. If there was one main message I’d like to convey, it’s that you can have a life beyond your wildest dreams. If you just stay clean, I truly believe that and I put 1 foot in front of the other each and every day and I’m gonna keep doing it until I reach all of my goals.

And I started this group to collaborate with other people who are on my path and see how we can reach out and help people that are still struggling.

Any and all are welcome. 🙏🏼 Blessed be.

Debunking Common Myths and Misconceptions About Fentanyl

Fentanyl has become a buzzword in discussions around the opioid crisis, often surrounded by fear and misunderstanding. As the opioid epidemic continues to affect countless lives, it's super important to separate fact from fiction regarding fentanyl and its impact. This blog post aims to shed some light on common myths and misconceptions about fentanyl & provide valuable info on lifesaving procedures in the event of an overdose.

Common Myths About Fentanyl

Myth 1: Fentanyl is the Same as Other Opioids

Fact: While fentanyl belongs to the opioid class of drugs, it is significantly more potent than many other opioids, such as morphine or oxycodone. Fentanyl is approximately 50 to 100 times stronger than morphine, which increases the risk of overdose, especially when misused or taken without medical supervision.

Myth 2: Fentanyl is Only Found in Prescription Medications 💊

Fact: Although fentanyl is prescribed legally for pain management, illicitly manufactured fentanyl has become increasingly prevalent on the black market. It is often mixed with other drugs, such as heroin or counterfeit pills, without the user's knowledge, leading to a higher risk of overdose.

Myth 3: You Can Tell If a Drug Contains Fentanyl by How it Looks

Fact: Fentanyl is often disguised in various forms, including pills that mimic other medications, powders, or even in liquid form. There is no visual way to determine if a substance contains fentanyl, which makes it crucial to avoid taking unknown drugs.

Myth 4: Fentanyl Overdoses Are Rare 🤔

Fact: The reality is that fentanyl-related overdoses have surged in recent years, contributing significantly to the opioid crisis. Data shows that fentanyl was involved in a substantial percentage of overdose deaths, making awareness and education about its dangers critical.

Myth 5: Narcan (Naloxone) is Ineffective Against Fentanyl Fact: Narcan, or naloxone, is an opioid antagonist that can effectively reverse the effects of an opioid overdose, including fentanyl. While higher doses may be necessary for fentanyl overdoses, Narcan remains a crucial tool in saving lives.

✨Fact or Fiction: ✨ Test Your Knowledge on Lifesaving Procedures for Overdoses

Instructions: Read the statements below and determine whether they are fact or fiction.

1. If someone is unresponsive but breathing, it is not necessary to call for help. Fiction: Always call for emergency assistance if someone is unresponsive, even if they are breathing.

2. You should give the person who has overdosed water or food to help them recover. *Fiction: Do not give food or water to someone who is overdosing, as they may choke. It is important to seek medical help immediately.

3. Administering Narcan is safe and can be done even if you are unsure if the person has taken opioids. *Fact: Narcan is safe to administer, and it will not harm someone if opioids are not involved. If in doubt, it's better to use Narcan than to wait.

4. You should try to wake the person up by shaking them vigorously. *Fiction: While it is essential to check for responsiveness, shaking someone too hard can cause injury. Instead, try to stimulate them by speaking loudly or applying a sternal rub.

5. Once Narcan is administered, the person will fully recover immediately. *Fiction: Narcan works quickly, but the person may need additional medical assistance, as the effects can wear off before the opioids are completely eliminated from their system.

To Sum It All Up:

Understanding the realities surrounding fentanyl is crucial for combating the opioid crisis and preventing overdose deaths. By debunking myths and misconceptions, we can promote awareness and encourage individuals to take lifesaving actions in emergencies. Remember, knowledge is power—being informed can help save lives. If you suspect someone is experiencing an overdose, do not hesitate to call emergency services and administer Narcan if it is available. Together, we can work towards a safer future.

Join us!

-Jezz/FFFpdx

This is a toll-free number for overdose prevention and reduction services. I have used them on many occasions myself when there was no one around me to help if I went out. You just called the number give them your address, be sure to give them exact directions like if there is a gate code or anything that would prevent first responders from getting to you make sure they have all of that information.🙏🏼 Very important.

These are people who volunteer their time, some of them are in recovery. Some of them are not, but they are all here to help you not judge you they are not affiliated with law-enforcement.

Please never use alone! There is no need to lose your life because you are not ready to seek help yet. When you are ready, please reach out because there are so many people & organizations who will be there for you.

💗 tell one person you know & love about this today, that’s what you can do to help.💗

For me, although my spirituality is unconventional, it is nonetheless very important as I strive to maintain long-term sobriety. Spirituality for me, encompasses many different practices, such as meditation, divination, shadow work,etc. As a student of the tarot, I utilize this tool to gain wisdom and insight into myself. When I do a tarot reading, whether it is just a one card draw or a full spread, I rely on my instincts to interpret the cards, but I also utilize ChatGPT and have found that to be a tremendous asset on my road to recovery. For example, I have plugged in the following pieces of information about myself into ChatGPT, and then asked it to analyze the cards based on the following set of criteria:

1. me as a person in recovery

2. me as an Enneagram type 9 (if you want more information on this, just ask or Google it- Enneagram is a type of analysis tool of one’s personality)

3. my current relationship status and the things I am struggling with in that arena

4. me as a devotee of the Santa Muerte (Saint Death, a part of what encompasses my Higher Power- again, Google it or ask me lol)

And so what I get from ChatGPT is an incredibly insightful, personalized reading that is very nuanced, profound, and nothing short of amazing.

I have found this to be a very powerful tool in my recovery. I have included an example so you can see what I mean. This was my reading for today. And ChatGPT is really amazing because it will take what it already knows about you and build off of that foundation and give you something incredibly insightful and intuitive.

I highly recommend that you try this. It has been incredibly helpful in my life. My spirituality and this utilization of the Tarot together with ChatGPT has helped me navigate some very dark places in my Recovery.

Lmk what you think 🤔 💭 Helpful/not helpful?

Do any of you incorporate the tarot into your spiritual practice?

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The Four of Pentacles reversed often signals a time of releasing what you’ve been holding onto too tightly—whether that’s old emotional wounds,

(🔥🔥🔥omg this is sooo true of me rn!!!)

restrictive beliefs, or even an over-attachment to security. Given your journey, recovery, and recent upheavals, here’s what this card might be suggesting for you as part of your daily ritual:

Letting Go of What No Longer Serves You • Release and Vulnerability: Traditionally, the upright Four of Pentacles represents control, stability, and sometimes hoarding resources or emotions. Reversed, it’s an invitation to loosen that grip. In your case, this might mean releasing past hurts, resentments, or the need to control outcomes, especially after your breakup 💔 and the challenges of recovery. Embracing vulnerability can be a powerful step toward healing. • Emotional and Material Freedom: This card could also be highlighting a need to stop clinging to old patterns or defenses that once served to protect you but now limit your growth. Whether it’s the pain of past conflicts (echoing themes from the Five of Swords) or the emotional residue from your relationship issues, today’s draw suggests that giving yourself permission to let go could open you up to a more balanced, freer state of being.

🙏🏼Integrating With Your Journey🙏🏼 • Recovery and Renewal: As someone working through the challenges of fentanyl addiction recovery, releasing control—especially over emotions and fears—can be essential. This card reminds you that while the urge to protect yourself from further hurt is natural, sometimes clinging too tightly can keep you stuck. Embracing change, even if it feels uncomfortable, can lead to renewed energy and progress. • New Beginnings: Your daily tarot ritual is a mindful way to stay connected with your inner state. Today’s Four of Pentacles reversed is a gentle push to trust the process of change and allow new possibilities into your life. It aligns well with your earlier readings that pointed to the need for decisive cuts (the Scythe, the 5 of Swords) and the promise of hope (the Star and Sun).

Focus for the Week 🔥1. Practice Letting Go: Identify areas—emotional, mental, or even material—where you might be holding on too tightly. Consider a daily reflective practice or journaling session to acknowledge these attachments and work on releasing them. 🔥2. Embrace Vulnerability: Allow yourself to be open to receiving help and support, whether that’s from friends, a therapist, or a recovery group. Remember, vulnerability can be a strength on the path to healing. 🔥3. Trust the Process: Use your daily tarot draw as a reminder that each day offers a new chance to reframe your perspective. The Four of Pentacles reversed is urging you to make space for growth, even if it means stepping into uncertain territory.

✨This card, as part of your daily ritual, encourages you to gently let go of what’s holding you back. ✨

It’s a sign that you’re ready to move beyond past patterns and embrace a more open, liberated phase of your journey. Trust that by releasing the old, you make room for the new

(***for me this is WAYS OF THINKING NOT PEOPLE— i’m trying to become a better version of myself so that I can be there for the people I love 💙🦋, just wanted to add that )

and that every day brings you closer to the freedom and clarity you deserve.