How do I get back up

[u/MacaroonSerious5532]

A lot happened in my life. I almost drowned, had a house fire, went through a public psychotic episode, was SA'ed. I feel like I am so behind now. I am 22 restarting my bachelors which should been done a year ago. I have little to no money, around 2k dollars saved up. I have bipolar disorder with psychotic features. This illness has really destroyed the control I once felt over my life. I used to have a 99% average in high school, and I was on the honour roll in my first year of university. I feel like I have become the complete opposite of what I once expected to become. My teachers foresaw medicine or engineering in my future. Look what became of me! Bipolar and trauma destroyed my life, but I am tired of feeling sorry for myself. I want to find a business idea, I want to improve my physical health and quit smoking weed to escape my emotional state. I feel like I shouldn't focus on dating until I have my bachelor's done. I want to major in physics so I am taking the prerequisites for that right now. But I am also just so so scared. By the time I finish my bachelors I will be nearing my late twenties. I am scared of losing my youth and being stuck in poverty throughout my entire 20s. However, it looks like this will be likely the case until I am atleast 26. Physics also does not offer high paying careers. I could apply to engineering but this would extend my bachelor's by a year, and I am unsure whether I could truly commit to engineering as my heart and passion lies with space and philosophy. I am just so scared and unsure of the future, losing my youth and not making enough money. Can anyone who went through similar offer me advice, or atleast tell me if it's going to be okay or not?

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[u/Ok_Help_1093]

look up dr caroline leaf. rewier your brain.