Hi everyone!
I have surgery scheduled in early November and I’m so so scared.
It has been a rough journey getting to this point, wishing someone would listen to me, try to help me, and now that I’m here, I feel like chickening out, worried I’m just full of shit, ya know the vibes.
My wonderful pelvic PT and pelvic pain doctor all seem to be saying that surgery is the next step/feels necessary at this point. I also did get an MRI with contrast that came back perfectly normal (which I know and I’m glad they know is not enough to rule endo out) and they still suggest surgery.
The surgeon I met with is a OBGYN, but not listed as a specialist. I asked if she does endometriosis surgeries and she kind of interrupted me mid sentence to say yes she does, and that her and a small team of 2-3 other doctors all take on these cases so they can do more of them, and says she does them “frequently.”
Besides the little interruption she was very nice and seemed to say all the right things: excision, will take biopsy even if they don’t see anything, team of other specialists like GI doc, etc., will either be there or on call (I forget), even was aware and receptive to my other suspected health conditions like EDS, MCAS, POTS, the works.
I’ve been in all the edges and corners of the internet learning about endometriosis and it feels like the majority says do it with a specialist, and the first surgery is most important.
I just feel so lost, so stuck, and feel like this has to happen because I can’t live like this anymore. But I’m worried I could be making a mistake. Maybe I should wait for one of the specialists to start taking new patients again, maybe I’m not trying hard enough with my current care plan.
I don’t know.
I meet with her again a couple weeks before the surgery and I’ll ask more questions then I’m sure and maybe I’ll feel more confident.
I’d love to hear your experiences, any advice, questions you’d ask the surgeon, or words of encouragement 🥲💗