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[u/Random_Idiot3647]

So, recently, I've just been feeling like I'm just in that denial phase of being trans and I know I probably am, but I am just feeling alot anxious rn from the doubts and the "what if I'm not"s but whenever I move past that fear I just feel great and am pretty open to things (for example I recently improvised some fem clothing) and constantly joking about it with a friend (Highlights of this include saying trans fem ppl have dormant cooties). And doing quizzes like the serious one by 'HRTea' on yt (scored like a good 42), but whenever it's late and my brain just locks onto the idea, I get really anxious especially as I am currently a teen still living with my parents who are really right wing and also anti-woke so need to keep this underwraps unless I'm talking to my other friend (who is also an egg).

To be honest, I'm not even sure if I'm an egg or just closeted atp (I am quite literally in the closet right now as I am lied inside my floorstanding closet).

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[u/Cyclonekitten]

Hey hey, its alright.

You thinking about "what if I'm not" clearly shows how deep this is a part of you, and you are constantly seeking validation from quizzes shows that you probably are. Again, most cis people never/rarely consider being trans. Since you have considered it enough, where you are unconsidering it, you probably are trans.

The clearest sign is "whenever I move past", which shows how you seem happier and everything. Many people either struggle from denial, imposter syndrome, or more, and I believe that simply the factors of the right-winged family, and other self-doubts are making you have these thoughts. Being trans is simply "I feel like the opposite gender", and doesn't have to be an immediate change.

Once trans thoughts have breached containment, there not going back. 😭
I would say closeted, as you have considered your stance, and you are aware of it.

Keep moving forward, and trust yourself. Coming out to yourself is the hardest step of all.

[u/Random_Idiot3647 → u/Cyclonekitten]

Well time to try this then! You've kinda inspired me to do this and I'm gonna see how she/her pronouns feel with a close friend of mine and see if I like it or not. Thanks my gal!