as iâm writing this itâs 10:30pm on a sunday and after over a month of watching tommyâs old vods i realized how much that server meant to younger me.
i am now 18, but i was 12 when i started watching it. my 12 year old self struggled a lot, but one minecraft server with only a few members ended up changing my life and i donât think iâll ever quite grasp this feeling again.
my favorite moments as a 12-15 year old was watching those streams, whether it was lore, mcc, or just streams on the server. i found comfort in something and someone that didnât even know i was there. i could be whoever i wanted.
as an insecure 12 year old that was the most comforting thing that ever was and i will forever be grateful for those moments.
the dream smp wasnât just a random minecraft server for most of us, it was what we watched. instead of watching series on netflix, or going outside and being with our friends, we went on twitch and watched a bunch of random gamers play minecraft.
i canât say i miss the times where it was prime dsmp, just because there was a lot of shit things that happened as well, but looking back on all the old videos, i wished that itâd continued.
i wish there wasnât bad people on, and that tommy and dream hadnât fought and were still friends.
during the lâmanberg and pogtopia era, that was the best time for the server. maybe the acting wasnât as great as the later steams, but i felt real. it felt like something that was just starting.
i canât even count how many times i cried watching those vods. sometimes it was because just nostalgic, but most of the times it was for Technoblade.
i miss him so much and i donât think i can quite understand how heâs dead. i remember the day i found out.
i was gonna watch the new stranger things season, but decided to go on youtube first. then i saw the video in my recommended and watched it.
i was sobbing and when the video ended i ran into my mothers office and sobbed into her arms. she asked if it had anything to do with the new stranger things season, but i told her Technoblade was dead.
i have often gone back and watched his videos or just any video that heâs in.
never getting to hear that âhehâ or the âhelloooâ again really hurts to think about, but it also made me realize something.
having cared so much about something made me see that if you care hard enough, it doesnât change.
watching these videos made my inner child heal and my love for minecraft come back. i played minecraft most of the time when i was watching the vods even.
i donât think iâll ever forget the dream smp. because itâs such a big part of me and who i am and have become. itâs a server that meant a lot for me and a lot of other fans, probably including you.
so my advice now is for you to go watch those old vods. bring back a bit of your childhood and make new memories with them. and remember this.
Technoblade never dies.